Came back from a long week of break I gave myself of not blogging. Really a long week. been thinking the whole entire week bout' my life and whatever that I have done in my life. Maybe to others, a little to fast. Man! I am only 16. No even working and thinking bout my life. But, to me I gotta think bout myself and visualise myself in the future and by asking myself if I am answerable to my own doings. And the result... I wouldn't considered mself pressured. Cos' nothings gonna bring me down. Really sure bout that. But though my little actions that I have sorta like 'displayed' during the course of my 16 years, thought that I did not believe in little things like luck and stuffz like that. I have always felt that luck didn't play a part in life and I got whatever Hell luck today. Maybe a lesson to me for not believing in luck. Got killed by so many teachers and so many punishments and stuff like that. got detention from Mrs P. for being VERY late for class. Supposed to be looking for Mr C. in the discipline office first thing in the morning, the first thing on the first day of the second term. Nevermind. I have never backed away from this kinda nonsense. Just face up to the truth and Mr C. I believe will be kind enough to me. Luckily for me, my MT teacher was very in a sense extraodinary. She was for the first time not scolding me for anything. I was a little late and she didn't at the least scold me. Lucky for me. But I just felt that something's amiss. Nevermind that. Wait to see... Then Mr C. , the other one, the MT teacher, sorta like reprimanded me for not handing up a project on time. But I was thinking like... Please... Ask me to finish a flash presentation of over 1GB of photos in 2 days. Hello! Are u like asking the impossible??? I still have my studies, my work and other stuff. I still have to sleep. How in the world is anyone supposed to finish the stuff in 2 days. Gosh! In total : Lots of bad stuff (still unwilling to say the luck word)
Yeah! and continuation of the thinking for 1 week. I felt that for the first time, my studies were very important. i tried to ask myself what i wanted to do. Then I felt that I was lost. Nothing can remain ever the same. Really! Nothing. So in the end, I would have nothing. I decided to study.
And today, i had to see so many teachers that I didn't go for NCC. Anyways, i heard that the training was not an official one. They didn't even have the RO for it. And they expected me to know that there would be training. I really thought that there wasn't training. I knew it only in the morning. This morning. And after seeing so many teachers, Mrs P. for the lecture on being late, Mdm N. for my poor results, and Ms T. for my MT lessons, I went to training. I swear that I was going. On the way, I saw my NCC friend, E**c, who was the Platoon Sergeant of my Part Bs. Upon seeing me, he was like, 'Hey! you! Pon training AGAIN!'. Then he gave that look. The look of feeling disgusted. Man! What did I do wrong? Nothing. Nothing at all. Didn't even get the chance to explain. Really. When one's popular, whatever he does is SUPERB and those who are unpopular are more often DESPISED. And obviously, I was late for training after seeing all the teachers.
Everyone's great in their own right, like everyone's a leader in his or her own right. Despising not required.
