Bout 3 weeks of exams

The mid-years are here. I can say that I am only like 40% prepared. Not ready. Really need to do something. Fast. Maybe faster. One side of my brain tells me that this mid-years is everything. Another side tells me that this is only a more important form of preparation for my O' Levels. What am I to do. I think the best is still to study.

Really haven't started on Chemistry. Everytime when I see the book, I sorta like get a bit scared and then I immediately switch to other subjects. Sound like the book is some sort of taboo. Maybe it is. And Mark... Just bcos you don't have to take the exam doesn't mean you can laugh at others taking.

Something just whizzed past my mind. Just remembered that at ben lim blog, he linked john as emo retard. Only till now john doesn't know.

Yesterday, saw your hand injured. Hopefully you are okay Shi Han. Sounds really frightening when I heard you fell quite a distance with your chin hitting the ground. I always feel sad when I get injured. Wonder if you would also feel sad. Recover soon!

And another thing. I was quite shocked when you suddenly asked me a seemingly rhetorical question of whether melissa was pretty. What am I supposed to answer? Yes? no? maybe?

The previous post on hate hopefully it doesn't kill the spirits of everyone for the mid-years. I got a lot of spam in the comments though. On how to not waste money and time but to use time to earn money. Quite crappy.

I think i write enough ler. Gone! Like Frank Sinatra!

After 1 week of self-realisation...

After 1 week of self-realisation, I found out that actually some people hate me. Maybe I have accidentally offended them in some I don't know how ways. I decided to post a solution to how I will settle this problem.

Let me get this straight... I will not attempt to make these people to not hate me but I will let time heal everything. I will not even try to explain your hating me is because of an inferiority complex that you feel inferior to me. Instead, all those that hate me will resolve on your own why you hate me.

I have been hearing stuff like, 'you are very irritating', 'you know that you are very hateful!' and others. Yes! You all told me u hate me, but why? No obvious reasons? Cannot be the case. All those that hate me, you will question yourself why u hate me instead of me asking you why u hate me because U came up with this problem of disliking me, and you will try to find out why u hate me. (I didn't say that I hate u)

I am submitting an ultimatum to all my haters. either u tell me what's wrong with me that u hate that is reasonable, or just keep you mouth shut and withdraw away to your own hole like an oyster. Cos' if you are that unwilling to tell me what's wrong, I don't see the point in trying to salvage the friendship.

remember! Not only I am the one that has to change for you, you also should have the initiative to accomodate me to my changes and my faults. Don't think u are any better or you are a perfect person. Remember! You hated me first!

Thinkin' bout many things...

I am thinkin bout many things. Things like exams and other things that i have experienced in my 15 and a half years of life. Just thinking bout the people close to me and wat have I actually done for them and myself. Really nothing. Absolutely nothing.Should I do something right now. If i should, then wat should I do?

Have to do a piece of Chinese HW this week. Something like posting a comment on my teacher's blog. I don't really want to do... I type REALLY slow in Chinese. Can Take like 2 hours trying to type something in Chinese. Wat say a piece of essay.

From my previous and today's post, I seem like very depressed. Actually, I am not. I just want to have a quiet moment of myself when there is no one to disturb me when i am thinking. Only then can I find the answer to my own questions.

As I have stated before. Having doubts in life would mean that I am actually maturing. not sure if this is true. But sure enough, I am starting to question some things around me and myself.

Mid-years coming... I have started on my biology but still not done yet. Only realised that I have a lot to study. NOt enough time... to much work. Better get back to studying...

Thanks for being a listening ear.

Situation

Imagine a situation where you have to write an essay on 'Who am I?'
Is that essay really simple?
Many of us actually think that we just have to write about our favourite stuff. The things that we love to write about. And mainly, about how you look and things like that.But... Is it really so simple.

many of us do not think of times when we felt lost...Times when we are suddenly alone. And that we have feelings that constantly sort of go through us. Times like that how do we actually feel. Like how I am feeling right now writing this post. isn't this times more often than not are the times when we are truly ourselves.

Do people grow emotionally? Definitely. People whom you used to hate may now not be the one you hate but instead grown to like. Changes are another important aspects of ourselves.

Now... Just Who am I?

Kept to my promise

I have kept to my promise. I am Back!Maybe a little too soon as compared to the previous 2 posts. But really... Just had the time and felt that should do something constructive here.

Well... Had my NAPFA test today. Didn't do really well those that I expected NOT to do well. LIke standing broad jump which I cannot jump for nuts and my pull-ups are only like average. Got 211cm for standing broad jump(2 points) and did 5 pull-ups(3points). The rest still did pretty okay. Like 10.48min for the 2.4km run. 7s slower than the A grade. haiz. Shuttle run did quite okay too with 9.6s. Well well well.

I broke a personal record of reading a book. That record even my mum didn't believe. Read a 160 paged book in 1 hour. Really fast. I was like speeding all the way. But still... finished the book in 1 hour. Now going off to do my work. Lots of work..,. Like mother tongue the workbook.

Quote from Albert Einstein...
'The intuitive mind is a sacred gift and the rational mind is a faithful servant. We have created a society that honours the servant and has forgotten the gift.'

Back soon? Maybe too late

I have alwats said that i will blog soon.Till now. Not really kept that promise. I am really happy with myself. I have kept to many of my promises as I have mentioned that i have not kept in my last post. Now that it's all done.. One thing off my list of to-dos

English really bad now. got like 19 over 30 for english descriptive composition. Third time getting 19 and the fourth time getting below 20. Always had a very high mark like 23 and 24. Now a 19 is really shocking and I am definitely thinking about how to improve my faults. But before that, is it me or is it the teacher that is the one that killing my marks?

I am not looking forward to the mid-years. Cos' i am not prepared this time. Maybe i was never prepared. This time though fiercely wanting to get that 12 or 13 points this time, i just don't think that I am warranting myself enough to claim that i will score that 12 points. I gotta strategise. Definitely! To get that target. But of course... I gotta study.

Back soon? Maybe too late

I have alwats said that i will blog soon.Till now. Not really kept that promise. I am really happy with myself. I have kept to many of my promises as I have mentioned that i have not kept in my last post. Now that it's all done.. One thing off my list of to-dos

English really bad now. got like 19 over 30 for english descriptive composition. Third time getting 19 and the fourth time getting below 20. Always had a very high mark like 23 and 24. Now a 19 is really shocking and I am definitely thinking about how to improve my faults. But before that, is it me or is it the teacher that is the one that killing my marks?

I am not looking forward to the mid-years. Cos' i am not prepared this time. Maybe i was never prepared. This time though fiercely wanting to get that 12 or 13 points this time, i just don't think that I am warranting myself enough to claim that i will score that 12 points. I gotta strategise. Definitely! To get that target. But of course... I gotta study.