Deaths

NOt really appropriate here for this topic. BUt i really want to address this point. Really

Death... I was realy scared of it when I was a teeny little kid. If I'm not wrong,I think it was when I was about 5. That little! BUt thinking bout it, i am still afraid of dying. The thought that everyone around me will be leaving or maybe even I will be leaving is something really scary. I have to admit that I really resent changes. The thought of 'where am I gonna go after I die' or things like that really makes me feel fearful of death. I remembered that when i was 5, i often ran to my mum, who was most probably at that time in the showers, knocking on the toilet doors, telling her that i was scared(i didn't tell her scared of what though), and often waited for her to come out of the showers, and most of the time already asleep outside the toilet door. And... i would most of the time cry to sleep. I was reaLLY afraid of deaths.

I remember the day my grandfather was admitted to the hospital. My grandfather had only recently come stay in my house and before that, I would only see him like about once every 2 to 3 weeks. I remember the days when he stayed with me. Not that I was rude, but i never really like greeted him everytime when i reached home. Sometimes i feel unable to speak up, never greeted him or don't know how to start greeting him. I never really commmunicated with him that often also. I didn't feel the similarity of topics to talk between the 2 of us. Sometimes, I would just observe him in the wee hours of the morning if I happened to wake up, needing to go to the loo to drink water. i will never forget how i treated the silent figure that 'roams' my house in the wee hours of the morning. Not greeting him everytime i meet him and not talking to him is already a crime too heavy for me to take.

This is personal remorse.

I will never forget the fact that i was his fav grandchild.


Death may be a form of relief for the person. Instead of suffering, the person leaves without any form of pain inflicted on them before they die.

Key point here: Do something for the person so that u will not regret in the future. There's no way in reversing death. Never.

After the pracs...

I not tryin' to be confident here. I think this physics exam was quite easy. End of story.

What really interesting was before the prelim prac and after the prelim prac. Before, everyone was harping on the 'Mee Siam Mai Hump' ringtone made by mrbrown. Everyone was like 'mai hump,mai hump!' For me, i think if I were PM Lee, I would feel really malu for the public faux pas that happened at the rally day. But to my info i gathered from my friends, some say mee siam sometimes also got'hum' one. Realli?

After the prac, i went to the canteen and was showing george,bryan and khai about the mrbrown's 'i am Singaporean' podcast. There was one part that he was like,'I believe in FAITH so much that...' I started to say that part in my usual rather loud but 'reserved' voice. As i was saying till after the I believe in FAITH so much... then then, i noticed that faith nah was behind me. Argh! She thought i was calling her. Argh! Argh again! What a big faux pas. I managed to quieten down in an instant and try to look non-chalant. Well nothing really happened right. I just so happen to BELIEVE in FAITH SO MUCH!!!

2 different things

John Cheo's version:
Girl! Are you from Jamaica? Cos' Ja-Makin-me hot!

My version (A little Singaporean):
Girl! Are you from Eunos? Cos' you're Eu-nique!

Haha!
Sometimes u don't have to make fun of the the Government to make your own jokes...

Won... then lost again

i went on a crazy trip. Cycled from my home in Sengkang all the way to school. Cycled to marine parade then to bedok,tampines then back home. Flew from my bike after misjudgement of the pavement. Went crashing into the sand and luckily for me, my falling down experince went into place. Didn't feel a single bit pain. except an injury to my right palm. Took only one hour and a half to reach school. Thats's fast.

Here are some pics.

Bike broken

My bike broke on Sunday morning. The back wheel couldn't budge and the bike seems to be gone. Cycled a long distance before it broke down. Cycled all the way to Punggol end. The place where the beach is. Quite far but still made it there effortlessly. Already cycled there a few times. Then i tried to cycle to compass pOint. Bike=wrecked. Then... From Compass Point, i had to carry the bike like they do in tour de france and walk back home. The wheel couldn't spin so had to carry. By the time i reached home, exhausted. Hopefully can get repaired soon.

A2

I got A2 for my MT O levels. That's all.

'Gentlemen + Sportsman + Professional + Nil Sine Labore (Catalyst) = Victorian'

So Long...

It's so long since i posted... And well. also didn't see the tag by terence till like 2 days later.And yeah. Maybe i will try to cycle round the world. But safety's an important factor too. Flying... as i have said,is too expensive.

I found that i need someone by me all the time. When i was running the cross country competitive run last monday, it was a crazy experience for me. I believe that i was one of the first maybe 30 or 20 after the nature trail. hitting the roads, my calf suddenly felt pain and i had to walk all the way. Till the last part when my legs still hurt but i tried to sprint all the way, beating zhi yang and making him outrun... haha. I saw him sprinting past me and i felt that he didn't have the sprint power to outrun me. I gave my last bit despite the pain and sa-she at the finishing line, i danced and i fell. Urgh. Quite stupid. Well, at least i was told i got like position 74. Dropped so many from my former position of 27. Argh. Nobody to run with me like last year and my position dropped. But of course also because of the lag injury also.

National DAy. So lubbly. I studied, fell sick, studied, and sick again. What a lubbly day. Lubbed the emo video they showed. lubbed the fireworks. Looks like they spammed the lot of it. But lubbed it though. Very beautiful compared to last few years. Happy birthday Singapore!

my MP3 got some prob. It plays 2 songs at one go. The hard drive got problem. And worst of all, the screen shows another song.Need to get a new one.

remember this no... 82.
And. happy national day steph!