i thought

i thought i will just post some videos here... some really good ones. if not i am just wasting my time posting them here when i could be doing something else like chionging for test or for tutorial...


little wing by G3. good cover. except that i dont really like vai and malsteen solo. cos its just techniques and no emotions.the solo that satriani does looks a little like john mayer's when he bends the strings...



can u believe that i went to find every single version of gravity played??? and to think about all this nonsense, this is still the best version. i hope to be able to solo like john mayer... see this song and u will know why...


and this is the second best version of gravity i found. the solo just as emotional.



i have always wanted to see really good musicians and songwriters come together to compose and improvise on a song. and this song? Rob thomas and john mayer. man. some good shit. u should really go and hear the real version of streetcorner symphony.



has the same gravity name. and is another good song which i hope to jam to one day. by embrace.


and last but not the least. i recommend this crazy wesbite. http://luxurybazaar.com/timepieces/main.aspx

watches galore!

chrome

i just got my new chrome bag.

look out for it on MON!

JM or Jimi Hendrix strat???

i saw john mayer playing this at live earth. it was the only guitar out of all the guitars he played on the show that caught my eye. and i just found it. it is supposedly a Jimi Hendrix Monterey Strat... i think it really looks very beautiful. it would be nice to have one of these... at this rate, i think if i REALLY DO have a guitar collection, it would definitely be something like those of john mayer's; all strats. not that i am a copycat or copydog or something like that(copy-animal), but i really do like strats. and maybe like customise them to suit certain songs. haha. nice strat.

i am getting glued to rob thomas and john mayer's songwriting skills. both their songwriting skills are really seductive. awfully sick. they can composed something that sounds great so easily. and the sheer determination of rob thomas to make good songs is really infectious.

i am gonna get my chrome bag tmrw. so look out for pictures. and guess what... its a limited and exclusive colour. and i will be one of a few people in singapore to have a chrome, since its not as marketed as crumpler in singapore. and i think it is much much better than crumpler.

i paid GOOD MONEY for it man...

my little doll

i just learnt a new spanish word.

- muñequita

it means 'my little doll'. pronounced as 'mu equita'


such a beautiful word. for beautiful people.

and... haha

i dont have a muñequita...

injury

it seems like i wont be going for road race afterall. i got injured today...

it seemed kinda serious. with my open wound occasionally burning up and me feeling quite painful. it all happened when i was dribbling the soccer ball. then bong slide me. or something like that. and somehow, his leg caught me. and i smashed to the floor. i could actually feel my ribs go down at first. and i am very glad that my ribs didnt break. and now, my right side of my body is injured. basically, i fell on my right side. and my right hand looks like wolverine now, with bloody holes on it. it was an unanticipated fall. and i got thoroughly injured.

imagine crashing unknowingly into the rough tennis court floor. with rough rock-like surfaces. and u will understand what happened to me.

pain.

really pain.


and i was missing someone again today. gotta stop... it has gotta stop.

i dont know why am i missing that particular someone. something is really wrong.

and my intuition is telling me something.

something.

something...

weird

this feels weird. but i cannot stop thinking about something. specifically someone. man. i just cannot help it. its just a thing inside me. and that was the person i sent an sms to meet at parkway and all she replied was that'dun bother. i cannot make it.' seems kinda weird though. and i must stop thinking about the person. because the person fires up my evil self. which was what happened today after biology lecture. I saw the person i have been thinking about for the past few days and soon after, i fired up. it was no longer me. it was someone cruel. someone who didnt care about anything happening in the world. someone who is a complete political animal and a through and through shrewd businessman. there were fire in my eyes. i could feel it. my eyes never did see kindness, it saw hatred instead. not hatred for the person, but rather hatred towards those who dare to oppose me. that's kinda scary. and till now, i am still thinking about her.

ben lim talked to me today siah. we pon the pe pull-up thing. then he told me on how yane spoke to him on his relationship with his 402 girl. it was damn obvious. and he seemed rather shocked why yane suddenly talked to him about this matter. and then ben told me about some random stuff about them. and finally, i think he popped the weirdest question of them all. 

ben: 'i am quite shocked that u still havent got attached'

me:'...'

well, i didnt say a thing. yeah. i didnt. 

i am still thinking about her as i am typing. should stop. should stop. and it feels kinda weird to mention this, but i think my cousin might be entering mj. regardless of how much i dislike this sch, i have to admit that this place is definitely a more conducive place for studying than tpjc. maybe its cos everyone's doing it. and then, i totally feel for ryan. who got 11 pts and now might not have a chance to stay in VJ. a sad revelation. but like i mentioned, its not a game of grades, but rather, its a game of luck. either u have it or u dont. simple.

i really need to get down into either St Anne's Church or the Church of The Good Shepherd to get my queries answered. I am a freethinker, believing in myself and the power of human beings to change things around with love, care and compassion. but with that divine intervention in my life, i cannot lay around and do nothing about it. perhaps i was meant to do something? fulfil a mission? i am not sure. and thus, i need to get my queries answered.

i did the personality profiling test about 2 times. i got 2 different results. it just shows how serious my split personality is becoming. and i cannot seem to get over that spectacle. 

i cant believe. even though its so much being typed. i am still thinking about that specific person. i dont know why. 

really. 

i dont know why.

i wonder how much april got for o levels...

video

i JUST FINISHED MY ECONS VIDEO!!!

i feel like shouting. but at this time. not quite apt.

i feel like playing fifa. but then again. i want to control myself.

and guess what, i am doing econs HW now...

wth.

i suddenly miss someone. oh no...

cp70

finally. and i saw a cp70 on ebay. but the thing is... 1 key is broken and another key looks like its a damp key. and there's 2 hammers missing also.

what the???

what kinda owner is that???

that cp70 would have been in better hands with me.

and i can only wish that that piano will be in good condition...

pre u seminar emcee

today's the last day for pre u seminar emcee trainin.

it ended weird.

and i think the trainers were damn cool man.

kudos

tubescreamer

looking forward to saying hi to my new friend, the TS7.

Hi! TS 7

A new person

i think i have just become a new person. a totally new person. you wouldnt think you know me. seriously. and i think i like this new me. its like embracing freshness. a breath of fresh air.

i think i shouldnt say this so fast. maybe my personality hasnt changed a bit.


and to think i am still not feeling well... i am rushing so many things at the same time. i think i might not get well at all. or maybe never get well...

we'll see how it goes. maybe i suddenly get well. i dont know. and i dont think so.


this new me.

new me this.

me this new.

me new this.

this me new.

new this me.


and that's it.

someplace

i supposed to go somewhere. but still havent gone there yet. and still thinking if i should go there... or should i not go at all.

seems like i need to hasten my progress in reading that AJAX book. i need to understand AJAX in the shortest possible time. and to re-grasp PHP once again. and i think php has been severely changed and upgraded over the years.

to think i forgot the first ever language i learnt. Javascript. i think i better read up again. if not i will really forget javascript.

computers.

computers.

computers.


to think it wont rhyme with tutorials.

graphic designing

went to pasir ris library. tried to find a book on ajax or php. but because the darn library is soooo nonsensical in their sorting of books. i couldnt find anything i wanted. imagine they put 3d animation in engineering section. and a photoshop CS3 book in photography. but anyways, in the end, also borrowed the photoshop CS3 book i saw. reading it through on the bus and realised how cool it was in changing the looks of photos and graphics. image distort.

went home and wanted to try it. supposed to study for chem test though. but then again. it was the power of photoshop.

and the weirdest thing of all. i just realised that i didnt have photoshop CS3 in my computer. and then i just remembered that i dumped it in favour of GIMP last year.

and now should i say goodbye to photoshop or GIMP? i seriously dont know man.

some things

there are some things that i want before i die. in fact, many things.

in no order of wanting it. cos i really want them all equally.

1) Nord Lead 3 Synthesizer. (No longer in production)

this is a cool thing. really cool. made by this swedish company. and i just got a shock from ebay. it freaking costs $2200+++!!! and its product details are below.

With the first Nord Lead back in 1995, Clavia introduced the Virtual Analog concept: analog synthesis emulated in real-time by digital signal processors, coupled with a fast and immediate one-knob-for-each-function user interface. With the Nord Lead 3 Clavia takes Virtual Analog to a higher level and introduces the Advanced Subtractive Performance Synthesizer. ‘Advanced Subtractive’ because of the extremely flexible sound engine, featuring a combination of traditional shapable waveforms and a very intuitive 2 or 4 operator FM engine. All this can be routed through the high quality multi filter for further shaping. ‘Performance Synthesizer’ because of its unsurpassed user interface and play control functions such as: keyboard hold, parallel polyphonic glide in legato mode, single-key triggering of whole chords and even clusters of slightly detuned voices for super-unison effects. You also get four separate Morph groups per sound, instantly controllable from the keyboard and the left panel section. Nord Lead 3 also sports the unique and sensitive Pitch Stick for expressive pitch bend control. All these functions are packed in a compact and roadworthy metal chassis that weighs less than 6.3 kg!

website: http://www.clavia.se/main.asp?tm=oldproducts&clpm=Nord_Lead_3

2) Vintage Yamaha CP70

this is a weird product. it exists in the market. but it does not have a product specifications page at the yamaha website. if i cannot even find a normal cp70, what actually gives me the idea of trying to get a VINTAGE cp70??? hmmm. seems like this wishlist item seems to be unfulfillable. but nonetheless, i will keep trying to find this model of electric piano.

3) Yamaha Clavinova

i want to get a clavinova. still thinking which model. but either way. a clavinova would set me back at about 2k even for the cheapest model. so... hmmm... quite impossible also.

4) Ibanez TS-808

man oh man. this is the best crap i have ever seen. it seems to be some cheap good. looks like some cheap pedal. but man. this is the best pedal in the world. the warm sound that this pedal gives is worth dying for.

its so good. its on wikipedia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ibanez_Tube_Screamer

5) Marshall Bluesbreaker

marshall bluesbreaker is good. not to be confused with marshall BB II. it is a better version compared to bb II. so use BB.

with so many things to want. its not really possible to get em all. but seriously. i want them all.

belief

i have faith in something. i have faith that i am going to die soon. its weird how people sometimes know they cannot make it past the next day. maybe that's how i also know that i will not make it past the next day.

its true. i am feeling weaker and weaker day by day. and to some extent of my sickness, i may have to give up certain things. like being the emcee for pre u seminar. i dont want to pull people down with my sickness. i am feeling faint but i cannot sleep at night. its not insomnia. its just that i feel sicker and sicker by the day. and perhaps, one day, by no means surprising, i may just suddenly leave.

its weird saying this, but i have been taking alcohol. drops of alcohol to make myself drowsy to fall asleep. everytime when i feel sick, i need someone by me. it will make me feel better. its not that i am not taking care of my health. but when things do get to this extent, it is not difficult to see that my body cannot take it anymore. this war against the sickness has been a stalemate. and i cannot continue fighting. my body is exhausted. maybe its time i gave way and just accept fate. accept fate and die one fine day.

its heartening to see so many tags on my tagboard in 1 day. it will help. help me to see the meaning in fighting for 1 more day of survival. thks george and dice. and the sms i got in my phone at 2.08pm. i dont know what to say. u arent a burden. i dont know if i should say this. u said this to me, and i felt it was cruel. but i feel its most important that u do as i say. forget me. forget me at least for 1 year. someone close to me will die this year. i dont want u to get too close to me. forget me. its the best way from me to you to protect your life. i dont wish for u to be the one to die.


they say that telepathy do exist. and indeed, i felt its presence. both of us felt its existence. but i can faintly feel it now. i think its gone. its really gone.


i have stopped knocking. and reconsidering if the love i am selling is worth your purchase. and indeed, it is not good enough. and i am leaving.


people do not think that fairytales exist. that's because they never did believe that it existed. its only when u believe, only then can fairytales exist. fairytales will continue to exist for people who believe. not for people who dont believe in it and see its worth. this fairytale-like magical world is a world that has feelings on its own. it will change itself for your sake if u believe that it will. the fairytale-like magical world which i still believe in, it did its magic for me to adore.




we're never gonna win the world.
we're never gonna win this war.
belief is what we fighting for.

not ready

i dont think i am ready to reply the people who have tried to contact me. i am feeling weak and sick and faint. dont bother about me. i might just die, or i might just live another day.

i will honour the promise i made to a specific person. its not for pride and not for reputation. its because i just cannot forget the promise i made.

u can try to type, sms whatever u want to tell me. whether i want to reply you, let's leave it to heaven's will.

countdown to 2008

i still remember what i said in the afternoon. that i dont want to enter 2008 with an unclear thinking. and now, i am already in 2008.

what a weird day it was yesterday. randomly jamming with some nonsensical characters. played soccer and produced stunts and more stunts until everyone came up to tackle me for the ball. and i spent the countdown with numerous other strangers at punggol beach.

i thought i would be alone at the beach. i cycled against the strong breeze and felt really relaxed. and then, when i reached there, the place was flooded with people. people who also enjoyed the company of the water, sand and the strong winds. i felt kinda scared cycling in and out. cos it was really quiet on the way in and out and all i had were rather scary looking forests next to me.
then went to hear the ridiculous duet of michael palmer and hady mirza. i can tell u that the whole thing's a joke. the emcee was making lots of noise as though the audience were young punks who only knew how to party. left shortly after. didnt bother turning back to see more things there.

yesterday night, i received a weird sms from an indian stranger, who wished me happy new year. i wish i could wish him too. but if i were to sms back, it would be an international sms. and moreover, i didnt know the guy. but it was good having an indian stranger friend smsin me happy new year. and that was 1 of the 2 smses i received. wei quan, despite knowing me not going to sms him back, still defiantly smsed me his wishes. and i must say i am really sorry to u, my really good friend who has stood by me since primary school. and with such an act of defiance from wei quan, that is really the defining difference between good friend and really good friend.

yesterday night was a very bad night. except for 1 good thing. which i say is the completion of a 1000 piece jigsaw my mum's boss bought for her from spain. the jigsaw can glow in the dark. and is 1000 pieces. it took a darn long time. and at night, when i was preparing to sleep, i felt rather faint and was sneezing and coughing all the way. i seriously thought that i was going to die yesterday night. i felt all alone, and needed someone to comfort me. but at that instance, i knew no one would. so, i rather give it up and endure the torture alone. i'm glad i fell asleep soon enough. but i'm unglad that i am still here typing and not in elysium.

and as i am typing now, there is a msn conversation window that is asking me to reply to the person saying 'hello'. i do not have the mood to bother about anything and to get you to bother about anything. but i am leaving it open... till i want to talk to you. i would rather you leave what u want to say. and maybe, i MIGHT just reply. might.


sometimes, chances are not about how slim they are. its about how much u want to take them.

i am a bad salesman.

promise

i want to stop thinking about many many things. but i keep thinking about the promise i made.

maybe this just shows how much i value the promises i make.

maybe.

and these few days make me seem like i broke the promise, by not replying people.

well. i didnt break it, yet.

and i am still thinking about the promise.