MJ Maths Dept

the guy whose name is Mr Vincent Ng is my teacher.

damn farny.

youtube

quote rob thomas:

"Anybody here works for youtube? I thank you for wasting my time."

regret

a weird thought dawned upon me. that's not intended to be a pun.

I suddenly imagined myself to be a famous politician getting interviewed while I was studying halfway. then the reporter asked me, what is the biggest regret in your life that you want to tell the people?

I suddenly started talking about this friend whom I used to have. Its a big regret that I havent really spoken to her for a long long time. To think we used to laugh together, it kinda pains? she also used to talk to me with her weird antics. weird weird antics. and if I were to hear her voice without even seeing who it is, I will recognise her voice straightaway. Its so distinctive.

I wished all that have happened didnt happen. but it is not possible and it is only right that I look forward to perhaps try to solve this problem. i guess the thought came to me, cos cheryl for the past few days have been calling me 'xiao ming', something that my friend whom I havent spoken to for a long time used to call me. I can still remember that she saved my hp no. on her phone as 'xiao ming'. which was weird. and cute at the same time.

I can still remember that goodbye that we said. it never felt like the last. never should have felt like the last. but seriously, it was the last. for the longest time.

I am actually very disturbed when cheryl calls me 'xiao ming', cos its something that only a few people know. and its kinda exclusive. and the people who used to call me 'xiao ming' seems to drift away from me. rapidly. just like the friend of mine whom I have yet to speak to for ages.

an exact quote from her, 'well, dont worry, i think i was wrong to. i didnt know that some things can be so confusing. well. anw im glad all things are over. and yes do hope to say hi to you in school too. but (erm) i dont think i'll initiate it much coz, it will feel a little weird. no doubt if the situation allows, i'll say hi. yupp:D'.

and I think that just spells it all dont it? It's kinda unlikely that she will initiate something like a hi, or a meetup to perhaps make the air less stale. She doesnt read this, and I dont think she will. so yeah.the chances are like? low...

I want to believe that she will. but I have a crazy feeling that this will become the biggest, biggest regret of my life.

facebook.

there's this girl called lydia nah. and she caught me attention on facebook. not that i'm a stalker. and I even heard from yane that she's like his classmate's cousin. And seriously, if i'm a stalker, I wouldnt have told yane about her. the story goes like this.

I was randoming on facebook. went to the friends you may know list. and started to refresh the page like crazy. then i realised that they only shuffle the first 2 rows of the people. cheapo! like that also call shuffle. then I noticed something different.

someone on the list, who is from my school, and also someone who I dont know, CHANGED PROFILE PIC LIKE 3-4 TIMES IN LIKE 20 MINS?????

after telling yane, then i was like, J2 still got time to change profile pic on facebook like 3-4 time??? smart lor. like that guy I always see in the library, reading magazines and not his notes. he looks like he's ready to take the GREAT A's anytime and score like ALL A's...


and that obviously caught my attention. which idiot wouldnt kena caught attention??

Dawn

just thought i would dedicate this post to dawn. somehow. and this would actually make my blog more organised.

this post is actually like 1 day late. I actually wanted to post this thing yesterday. but hey, now that its here, its better than not being here.

I was actually very shocked and happy. yesterday. cos I remember that ben lim told me before that dawn dont like to go to the library. so the chances of meeting her in the library would actually be a zero possibility. maybe not. maybe its a non-zero possibility. maybe, its just a very very very low possibility. close to no hope/no chance. but seemingly, fate seems to like putting its hand into this funny probability.

I met dawn in the library.

breaking news man.

actually, to be honest, i didnt really notice her in the library when she first entered. partly because ezra was blocking my view of seeing whoever that was coming into the library. and also partly that I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO SEE HER IN THE LIBRARY! another reason would be that my upper torso was shaking uncontrollably. I was just laughing hysterically like a madman. Couldnt really control myself and see what's really happening around me. And when I really do, its like I was doing my work already. and i saw her doing her own work also. So I didnt really want to bother her, by randomly saying hi and going there to talk. So I figured, I would say hi to her when I will need to walk past her. Which is when I have a problem with my math problem, and I have to ask neng, who is apparently sitting somewhere further away from where dawn is sitting.

but in the end, I didnt manage to say hi. the situation was kinda bizarre. Cos i realised that I needed my complex 3 notes today. and I lost it. so I ran out of the library in a huff to find my notes. of which I couldnt find. Then dawn came out and I was still frantically looking for me notes. after a while, dawn walked past me, waved her hands past my line of sight, and said hi. which left me dumbfounded for a moment.

for the second time, she said hi to me first before I did. which in a sense i feel extremely happy.

extremely.

and guess what, today I saw her again. having GP consultation. didnt have the chance to say hi though. feel quite wasted. ha.

I think seeing dawn in the library AGAIN will take A WHOLE LOTTA FATE, LUCK AND EVERYTHING ELSE to be on my side. I certainly do hope to be able to see her and talk to her in the library again. but ha! I think that's kinda... unlikely.

and certainly, she's not reading this, so she wouldnt know that I do hope to see her in the library. so yeah.

may luck, fate and a whole lotta other things be with me.

and dawn.

the priority seat

ever noticed the priority seats on the mrt trains? I know this seems kinda late, since the priority seat thing has already been in place for some time already. But I took some time along the way home everyday to ponder over this tiny issue. And as the days pass, I realised that the situation is not as easy as I thought it was. And this is how it all started.

Background Information: I usually give up my seat when I see someone, eg. Elderly, children, or people with disabilities.

Shane asked me along the way to VS.
shane: why are you sitting on the priority seat?
me: because i dont want any other people to sit on it.
shane: reason?
me: Because if i'm sitting on it, and I see someone worth giving up my seat, I will. But for another person that may sit on this particular seat, he/she might not have done what I would have done. And that priority seat purpose becomes self-defeating.

And since that day onwards, I have always been sitting on the priority seat. Its because I know Singaporeans too well. They would not give up their seats for people in need. Or at least for the most of them, they will not.

Then, as I pondered on further, something caught my attention on how myopic I may seem, despite the great purpose of me sitting on the priority seat. What if there is another person like me, someone who will gladly give up his/her seat for the needy? Or rather, the priority seat arrangement could well 'force' the person sitting on it to give it up, for fear of being labelled as 'selfish'. And if i were to sit on another seat, it doesnt mean that I cannot give up my seat like before. In a different light, it just means that there are now 2 people willing and ready to give up seats on the train. Isn't that a better alternative.

And even after this thought, I realised that Singaporeans are still selfish, for the most part. and I continued to occupy the priority seat.

pressing on to find the perfect solution, I pondered further. How to define the needy? How to define someone who needs the seat more than I do? For the part about people with children and the disabled, that pretty easy. But for the elderly part, I think its extremely difficult. Except for those who are apparently very very old already. But how often do these people travel?? Very little in fact. And the bulk of the elderly travelling are usually the ones who are still fit and able to travel long distances. And if I were to give up my seat for them, would it imply that I am treating them like an elderly. Even when they dont think they are, and they might just think that I am making them look very old.

considering these, I came to a reasoned conclusion. I will not sit on the priority seat again. I will in fact take my chances and hope that someone who will gladly give up their seats will sit on theat priority seat. and as for me, I dont want to make that awful decision that will make people seem old.

I will sit on that seat next to the priority seat.=)

the 12am

last night, 12am, i was feeling hyper and bored. for no apparent reason. so i decided. maybe look for some people to sms and maybe ask about their enlistment status. and guess what, i smsed wrong and smsed cheryl instead. luckily she was awake, so that i can have someone to random to.



for the first time, i was 'complimented' to be a very interesting person. its an exact quote. and i cant believe my response. even at 12am plus, i'm still so very awake and my responses were, intelligent.



An excerpt of The 12am.(in smses)
cheryl: you do know that you're a very interesting person right. haha!...
Me: I take that as a compliment. but as every interesting person is made, he/she needs a very interesting listener. Oh. Is that a compliment for you? I think it is:)
cheryl: i find whatever you say fascinating. if next time i wanna travel to europe..., ... must ask you along.
Me: (rattles on something about europe)
me: and yeah. I forgot to add. I'm no tour guide. I reckon a tour guide might do a much better ob in introducing europe:) but then again, by sacrificing a litttle less knowledge for more fun, then i think i'm better than a tour guide. Haha. Self praise is international disgrace. Night!
cheryl: Haha! you are damn funny. Good night =)




so damn random at 12am. i cant help it. dunno why also. and the I realised that many people NS enlistment is not confirm yet. and then i saw khairy fadhly ytd morning. he told me he suay suay enter Civil Defence. haha. dunno why they post him there also. weird.



and i checked for my enlistment status like more than 10 times ytd. including via telephone. so i think they might be saying,'this guy is one despo nut trying to enter NS. let's just put him in so that he wont clog up our servers anymore!'



and they just might. =)

lady luck, fate and a whole lotta chance.

this is one of the craziest things i've ever seen, done, or witnessed with my own eyes.

i was just talking to blim that i wanted to go to sch on thurs, even though i am not taking the chem mock papers. I didnt pay the ridiculous 5 bucks for it. the reason for me going to sch? I wanted to see if i can accidentally bump into dawn. But of course, the main focus for me going to sch would still be to study...

of which, ben and i were like talking and talking. until it came to this. a weird, stupid and corny idea on how to create the chance ourselves. cornily.

The Idea. (an excerpt from msn.)
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i think tmrw must like reacon the sch for her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: if not my chance gone
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: unless fate so good
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :that heng heng can see again
ben: recon you mean
ben: haha
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: same la
ben: i can always ask her where she is
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: tell me where good locations?
ben: then you can 'chance' upon her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i cannot right
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :then very weird right
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: u ask then i bump
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: ???
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: its good la
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: but like...
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: very fake
ben: haha
ben: then you have to do it the normal way lor
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: but i doubt she would know it also lor
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then imagine this scenario happening
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: u ask her where she is
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: you tell me
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :then u go meet her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i 'happen' to be there
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i go 'hey ben!'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: and then, turning to her, 'hey. you. 2 days ago we met at photocopy shop'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i turn back to you,' you know her?'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i reckon you would laugh at this time
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i wwould turn to her, with a fake tone, 'oh you both know each other... what a small world!(corny man.)'
ben: haha
ben: yup
ben: that would be freaking corny
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: most likely i would like ask her for her name
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: cornily
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: hey
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: want to try that tmrw?
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: we see if my prediction is right
ben: dun think so
ben: i think itll spoil my reputation sia


and to think after discussing so much nonsense. ben didnt agree to it. and i dont reckon that this would be needed. considering what happened to me=)

being lazy, i didnt bother going to sch. or rather i woke up kinda late. so i was like, argh! sch today? might as well go and meet shane,changyang and chris to study. so i just msged shane and it was settled. left the house at 11 plus. i can still rmb trying to run for the bus 89 from the overheard bridge near my house. and when i boarded, i said my usual 'thank you' to the bus captain for waiting for me. and surprisingly, i got a smile in return, which was very nice. afterwhich, i met yen kenn at the mj bus stop and he boarded the bus 89. didnt really talk to him, except to give him the weird stare the the eyebrow thing. after that, i alighted at the stop where i still have to walk to the mrt station. at this point in time, i was like, hopeless alr la. cannot bump into dawn anymore. but then again. fate didnt let me off. which i am very thankful for.

and as i was walking into the pasir ris mrt station, i saw someone very familiar. hmmm. so i hastened my pace. and when i reached the escalator, i was like,"wth! wth! wth!". the first instinct was for me to sms blim on my outrageous luck and the fact that fate was gripping me tightly. it was total madness. the probablity of me able to meet dawn in sch is like 1 in 1 million? since, i;m like constantly cooped up in the library:). and now, to be able to bump into her at the train station, that's a probability of 1 in more thatn 1 billion!!! pure,pure madness. and so, i set off. upon walking along the train carriages, i realised i lost track of where she walked to. and it was quite a whirlwind. since i entered the train, and i was looking at which way she went. and then i realised i couldnt see her around. and i turned my head at the train doors. the doors slammed shut. for a moment, i felt like i was in a prison of no return.

walking on, i realised the train was quite packed. then i saw dawn again. sitting down. and to my disbelief, despite the packness of the train, which was obscenely filled with people, there were obscene numbers of seats opposite where dawn was sitting. and to me, at that particular point in time, i could feel adrenaline pulsing through my blood vessels. cos, i was like, argh no hope. then suddenly hope just appeared in my hands. so a little shocked and caught unaware. i just sat down opposite her and pretended that i didnt see her when i came in. after a whole flurry of smses that i had to reply to, namely to shane, ben lim, ben tan and my mom. i looked up. and the best thing happened to me=)

dawn waved and said hi. argh. i bet i must have melted away at that point if i were a candle wax.

being the calm guy i was, i waved back and said hi. pulled down my headphones and she started talking to me. below is the tiny excerpt. of which i think i can gurantee its 100% accurate. the thing will remain in my mind.

the all importan converstion!
dawn: you going out to study?
me: yeah. (then giving that trademark smile). you?
dawn: i'm going home. (and somehow, my trademark smile was return back to me in style. meaning=she smiled at me as she said that)
then she stood up and walked to the train door, and as she walked to the train door, she walked towards my direction and said goodbye. which was very melting. considering that she walked over to me to say goodbye.
dawn: see you.
me: see you. (at this point in time, i was waving my hands, and it hit the metal bars with a freaking loud 'thud!'. i swear that hurt. until now)
me: ouch!
dawn: (she just smiled/laughed.)
me: hey! i didnt see you when u were sitting just opposite me! (i said cornily, since i sorta knew that she was sitting opposite me alr.)
dawn: you were busy smsing mah.(this shows that she was observing me alr!)
me: (insert trademark smile)
me: hey wait. i thought afternoon got chem paper 1?
dawn: (smiling) haha. i only go for paper 3.
me: haha.
dawn: see you!
me: see you!

and that's it. i'm very sure i will see her again... thanks to lady luck, fate and a whole lotta chance.

nihon-go

Ms. ????はとても素敵な女性で、一緒に居られて最高です

the long post...

i realised that the past few posts have either been slipshod or have just been posted for the sake of posting. seriously. it doesnt really give much or any information about my life so far, with 20 days left to a levels. and with the usual many things that happen in my life, it will really take a long of time to actually type all down here. but regardless, i WILL try.

1) facebooking
jon oh's moving house. with his few cents pay a month. he saved up for about 100 years for that new house. but either way, i havent been to his house at the savannah. its supposedly to be a damn sweet and nice condo. wonder where's he is moving to... randomising on the ze wei's photo, in another attempt to make it the most commented photo in facebook. i seriously think we have done it alr. but i still not sure. might need to source for confirmation from facebook. and then randomising on people wall. and i think that's all.

2) was walking home on one fine day, walking through the eunos mrt station. as usual, i was plugged up on my wireless headphones. suddenly, there was this indian lady who looked to be around 20 something came up to me. she told me she was an ex-convict and was like asking if i considered giving ex-convicts a chance in society. being the nice guy i am, of course i wouldt mind la. i was like super open to whatever she was saying. apparently, she was asking for donations. and below is the excerpt of the conversation.
Indian lady(IL): Hey. I just want to ask you a few questions. do you give ex-convicts a chance in society?
me: erm. yeah.
IL: I am an ex-convict myself, and I am currently doing a project to help ex-convicts. I'm sure you would have spent like hundreds of dollars on yourself in shopping a month right?
me: erm. haha. i dont think so.(i really dont spend so much, and i dont really shop)
IL: all i want is a small donation.(at this point i'm still quite open, i usually donate one. i rmb buying a useless china pen from china for 2 bucks just to help some home) Do you have 5 dollars?
me: (i suddenly rmb that i paid for lots of things in sch, like exam papers and stuff. which almost sapped me of about 40 bucks.) erm. i dont think i have.(i'm quite honest huh?)
IL: what about 2 dollars?
me: i dont have also. becos today i just...(i actually wanted to continue by saying that i paid for lots of sch stuff today and didnt have money leftover)

and before i could finish my sentence, she just walked off. without even listening to whatever i wanted to finish saying or even just a simple 'thank you'. apparently, the logic is: i didnt have money on me, she wanted money, and becos i dont have it, there isnt a need to bother about me. how rude is that??? i really couldnt stand it at that point in time. it was very sudden. i was left standing there wondering what the hell in the whole wide world had just happened. how can a person just suddenly walk away after attempting to get money from me. and i can still rmb that the smile on the IL face was WIPED CLEAN OFF the moment i said i didnt have money on me. which was the truth.
I really want to give ex-convicts a chance in society, but that no-show was clearly given me the clear signal that i seriously dont have the obligation to do so.

3) on a lighter note, I want to commend YU KEE DUCK RICE at BEDOK INTERCHANGE. although i dont sound like a credible source since i'm like a regular customer of that store. that fine day, i went to order duck rice. and the store seemed a little more chaotic than usual. it took sometime for the guy to take my order, but i was fine with that. suddenly, i saw a very old lady limping very slowly by the sides of tables, apparently looking for something. then the guy at the store asked in Hokkien if the old lady had dropped her wallet. people around started to take notice then. the old lady seemed uncertain of what she dropped. dunno if its true, but it did seem that way to me. the store guy kept on asking her, almost to an extent of brainwashing her to believe that its her wallet. maybe cos when people get older, our memory starts to fail. then the old lady said that that wallet is hers, in a very miniscule and soft tone. the store guy walked up to her and passed her the purse. a tiny black purse. and he told her not to drop it on the floor again. i happen to see her open her purse to check if anything was missing, cos the guy told her to check. inside didnt seem to have obscene amounts of money. neither did it have wads of notes or even a few notes. it was just a few coins, and perhaps a 2 dollar note. i couldnt see well. but there was something of which i saw clearly. crystal clear. the smile on the old lady's face cannot be emulated in any other form. the sheer exhilaration on her face was a perfect testimony to the good work of the guy at YU KEE DUCK RICE. a great act that made the day of another person.

4) have been listening to bold as love. both the john mayer version at where the light is concert and the continuum album version. the where the light is version had a part where john mayer started to talk. he was talking about finding ways in life. of what he did for himself. and he came to a conclusion. he said it was corny, he said that its LOVE that is the plain driving force for everything. not the type of love we are thinking about. it about synthesising love for something, to someone, its that kind of love described as "i-got-your-back-love". but to me, when i first heard it, i didnt really feel much towards those words. but after a very alone time in VS, where i am attempting to come to a conclusion myself. i was thinking for deeply for a whole 20 mins. just standing by the koi pond in VS at night, where there was only the light in the canteen and the dark outdoors to keep my company. looking at the koi pond, i was thinking, where i want to go from here? I want to be like John mayer, MAKING THINGS HAPPEN FOR MYSELF. its difficult i reckoned. then i thought. and thought. seriously, its just love. i decided to find a way to synthesise love for my subjects i taking for a levels for the rest of the days until the exams. for, the only way to make things happen for myself, is to synthesise love for my subjects, only then can i do well in it. I am not a man to do things blindly, not in my defintion. and i'm going to start MAKING THINGS HAPPEN FOR MYSELF.

5) today morning, sat on the study benches while waiting for the maths paper to start. ben lim came up and we sat next to each other talking about random things. as usual. then suddenly, he asked me...
blim: you havent told me who your friend is
me: oh. haha, he's from her class. and he's a him.
blim: you not jealous meh?
me: no. not at all. even in a relationship, we must understand that its still 2 people. 2 different people with different personal lives and different social circles, to a certain extent. I wouldnt want to and dont have the energy to control her life. she want to do what then she do lor. no point me trying to tell her what to do.
blim: this reminds me of what changyang said of love. he said that love is like holding sand in your hands. hold too tight then the sand will flow out. hold to loose the sand will also flow out. so must hold it nicely to an extent which dont jeopardise both parties. but i hold her(pointing to his gf) very tightly. and she still never run away. haha!
me: haha!
i guess it differs from people to people. but as usual, changyang was darn right. the sand thing? totally right. and that's just my modus operandi.

6) was asked to the airport cos cheryl asked me to study there with her on monday. went there, got a big shock. got a lot of mj people. almost to the extent which i felt mj sorta owned the place. i thought i saw cherish there. but then again, i'm not that sure. cos that girl whom i thought was cherish looked very pretty. and i didnt really know whether's its her. anyhow, i didnt really bother. then after studying a while, cheryl used her hp to tell me that she thinks the girl sitting to my right is pretty, dunno which one she talking about. so my natural reaction is to smile. and i did. after that, i went home.

7) just met george today to pass some super secretive thing from ben tan to him. i dont even know what the hell is that. all i knew was that i was told to pass the thing to george the way it is. and i did. and i finshed the courier service.

8) Law kena commando. just like lee jin. law confirm enlistment on 12 december 2008. nothing to change that fact now. he's a sad kid. but for me, mine isnt confirm yet. i checked with the NS portal. and the weird thing for me is that i checked like 6-7 times in 24hours. i think the NS people will think i crazy. then they might think, better sort this guy out quick, before, he keep coming back to jam our servers with his crazy enquiries about his enlistment status. haha. if i suay, i MIGHT just get confirmed tomorrow.

9)this is the last paragraph i'm going to write. i'm really tired. devote this to the most important.
in sch today. saw dawn twice. first time was in the morning. when blim and i were walking to the lt to take the maths mock paper. then i saw dawn and my natural reaction was to grab blim by his sleeve. i somehow got uber excited and almost caused blim to fall down the steps. the second meeting was at the photocopy shop. it was a whirl of events and i didnt really take note. the scenario? i wanted to get a copy of the math mock answers, then i smsed ben tan to help me order. but being me, i went down to get ben tan to order for me, since he alr in the queue. after which i went to talk nonsense with blim in the canteen, who was playing his rubiks cube. then he asked me why i here. so i told him i ordering math mock answers. and he also wanted one. but ben tan also left for the lib. so the order alr processed. then i saw law and nien xiang queuing. so i told ben lim, can, i order for you. so i left my seat and walked over to law. after ordering from law, started to talk cock again with law and nien xiang. suddenly, when its our turn to order, then did i realised that dawn was behind us all the while. law asked her whatever she wanted so can order together. apparently, its the same as us. plus 4 h2 econs mock answers. so when the order was made, law somehow forgot to order the econs. haha. it was realised after everyone was out of the queue.

they were thinking, aiya. must requeue again. but me being me, i saw justin james in the queue. so i told justin to help order the h2 econs mock answers. at first it was weird. cos dawn and co were like stunned and was going like 'queue again?' then i pointed at justin to his bewilderment and said, can make use of people in the queue to order stuff. then they were like stunned. so i just went over to justin and said,'4 h2 econs mock exam answer, thanks'. of course he was okay la. i knew him. then dawn and co realised that the order been made, and no thanks to me,but more to justin for being in the queue at the right time. after that, i talked to justin about his brother, of which he was shocked to hear that i knew his brother. got the h2 econs papers and passed em to dawn. then after that i went to take blim's math paper to pass it to him. during which we had this tiny conversation.
blim: hey. busy talking to dawn ah?
me: haha. (grinning from ear to ear)
then i walked back. then dawn realised that they ordered too little. not enough. so had to requeue again. then i saw brian, hongan bandmate. hehe. make use of friends again. wanted to ask him to order stuff for dawn again. then i was reminded that if dawn were to queue again, it would make no difference, cos dawn was just in the queue behind brian and shi rong. haha shi rong. after that, dawn queued and law,nien xiang and i went to the lib.

hopefully, me using me friends to help dawn and her friend can help me to boost their opinion of me at the same time. heard from blim that its quite difficult to get a good opinion from them. argh. difficult siah. hopefully. just hopefully. dawn remembers me. haha. and hopefully got good opinion. hopefully. haha. i feel i'm on my way!!


so long post. so darn long.

ze wei basketed

this is how i basketed ze wei...

u cant be a bigger fan of JM than me!there aint NO SUCH THING!
JM is BIGGER THAN MY BODY.and everytime i listen to him, all I hear is CLARITY and there a tinge of SPLIT SCREEN SADNESS in me. His songs always make me feel that YOUR BODY IS A WONDERLAND. Its kinda like a BELIEF the the forces of GRAVITY is making me BOLD AS LOVE. and well, sometimes...I DONT TRUST MYSELF WITH LOVING YOU. Its a good thing that JM has most VULTURES-like fans now, rather than just keep WAITING ON THE WORLD TO CHANGE. DAUGHTERS love to listen to his songs, and so do sons. Russia makes me go WHY GEORGIA, with the occasional NEON light in my room flickering.i measure dthe light,its 3X5.Pardon MY STUPID MOUTH for spouting nonsense. How i wish I could STOP THIS TRAIN. But, I just cant, I just CANT TAKE THAT PLANE.these days, i've been sad and how i wish my heart can be IN REPAIR, as i am DREAMING WITH A BROKEN HEART to regain
THE HEART OF LIFE,to imagine myself SLOW DANCING IN A BURNING ROOM with a hot babe... ooh

that for claiming to be a john mayer fan on facebook.

=)

a question

my friend asked me a question.

would you rather someone approach you to tell you that he/she likes
you? Or would you rather go tell the person yourself?

i'm a lazy person. i think i wouldnt go up to tell the person...

that's for being lazy.

open house

woke up late. went to sch late. just in time for a little time in the library and then to go for bio. walking along the route to go to the library, saw many things happening. like some ridiculous fan blowing the plastic thing up... people were all doing ridiculous things around. then happened to walk past the guitar ensemble booth. saw chee ching with dunno who there. then ran off to the library to finish some nonsense work. afterwhich, went to hand up the bio mock exam paper.

walking back to the library, saw chee ching and arvind playing guitar there. seems like the guitar ensemble brought their electric and bass guitars. so i walked to the garden-like area where there were plugged up and just chatted for a moment. after a short dang while, hong han and peng wee saw me from the corridor and they also walked to the garden to chat. then yane came. not surprisingly, owning the people playing guitar there. with the guitar ensemble people staring at him when he was playing bold as love and just doing this thing on the guitar. soon after, it was bio.

bio ended as fast as it started. rushed to the library to do something. then as i was walking along the same corridor, saw mong on the guitar, and brian next to him. stood there for a bried moment before i was convinced to pick up the guitar to do something. started to jam out with people starting to look in my direction. didnt really play well, according to my standards. maybe cos i compared myself to john mayer... then there was this random guy who apparently knew that i was playing john mayer stuff and was like asking me to play more. cant stop, gravity, daughters, better be home soon, collide, no such thing, belief were all on the song list of the songs played, with the occasional random me playing hideaway. people were looking, friends were wondering why i could play the guitar, j1s started to stand up and look in my direction(maybe cos i got into my john mayer frenzy, playing the guitar like a crazy man, with the bendings being too wicked to take.) not bad for a first public 'gig'.

saw jim and we decided to go home. along the way i saw blim. peng wee was there with his 'supposedly close girl-friend' decided to '-' the girlfriend, cos dunno their exact relationship yet, but i just assume its rather close. so blim and i were like laughing like crazy. and i couldnt convince them enough to take a photo of them with us in the foreground.


note: there was something rather awkward that i 'thought' took place during bio lecture. i was at my usual 'staring-at-some-random-thing-while-i-am-thinking-of-something-else' mood. for people who dont know, i can just stare at you and dont know that i am staring at you because i am thinking about another thing. then i just so happen to stare at some random place in front of me. apparently, its someone's back. but of course, i didnt really take note or know. suddenly, the person sitting next to the person whose back i was apparently staring at turned back and saw me. i happened to take note of this because i finished thinking what i wanted to think about. suddenly, the person whose back i was apparently staring at was told to turn back and see who is staring at her. before long, i knew who it was. i didnt attempt to shovel my face somewhere, but just lightly turn my head to the right to look at something else. its was awkward,yes. but like i said long ago and i will say it again. until that person is ready to speak to me, then i will be ready to listen to whatever you want to say. if you are still not ready, then i will not be ready as well.

it works both ways, just so you know.