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A Story Defining Love And Marriage - Buying Food

2009-01-06T20:33:00.001+08:00

A wise man and his student were walking when they reached a bazaar (a street filled with hawkers selling food etc). Both of them were talking about philosophy when suddenly the student asked the wise man, “Can you explain what is love?”

The wise man smilingly refused to answer. Instead he took some money and handed it over to the student. He said, “Take this money and go buy me the most delicious food in this bazaar. However there is one rule, you must treat the street as a one way street, which means once you have passed a hawker stall and you did not buy any food, you cannot buy any food later from that stall. So choose wisely.”

The student excitedly went through the street. He was amazed with the variety of foods offered at the first stalls. He then wondered, “Maybe there are more delicious food further into the street. I’m sure”. He then walked deeper into the street, finding more delicious food at every stall.

After some time, he realized that the stalls at the end of the street doesn’t sell any food at all. They were selling clothes etc. He regretted not buying any food and had to return to the wise man empty handed.

The wise man told him, “This is Love. You keep looking for a better one, but you only realize it when you have already missed the person”

The student then asked another question, “What is Marriage then?”

The wise man said, “You still have my money don’t you? Now go buy us the most delicious food. The food must also be reasonably cheap. And of course, the same rule applies. It is still a one way street.”

The student went back into the street. This time he was very careful not to repeat the previous mistake. After about 10 minutes walking, he bought some delicious food for him and the wise man. He then returned back satisfied with that food.

The wise man then smilingly said, “This time you look for one that is just nice. You sincerely believe this is the best decision you have made. And even if there are more delicious cheap food out there, you will still be happy with this one. That, my son, is Marriage.”
/end story

I always look at things differently from other people.Looking at this story, I started to wonder to myself a very personal question. The answer I got was that perhaps, I didn't have the money to even start with to purchase anything from the food market. Choice is no doubt important, but the lack of something to start with to even be allowed to choose, is more important.

And what's the personal question I asked myself? Go figure...

dreaming about ln and itclub

2009-01-06T09:41:00.002+08:00

I cant believe whatever I dreamt about last night. And its kinda true that you cannot control the way dreams are laid out in front of your eyes.

The first dream was about vsitc. Somehow, images of the people who have come and gone in vsitc came sprouting out into my mind. There didn't seem to be a storyline like the usual dreams have. It was totally random. Perhaps, its just a sign showing how random the people at vsitc are. And oddly enough, I dreamt about everyone, but not kayfong. Perhaps, he is not worth remembering to my brain.

the second dream was about ln. Not the mathematical ln, but another ln. I managed to abbreviate it into ln, which will allow me to conceal the identity of the person/object/symbol. This should be the second or third time dreaming about ln. I don't know why, but in my daily life, I have never even thought about ln, not even mentioned about ln. Contents of the dream are not to be mentioned here, but it just made me a little confused; why in the world did i dream of ln and not another??

Dreams sure are odd, they can make people whom you do not even think about, hear about, or see in your daily life appear.

Hospital and patience

2009-01-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

I cant believe I saw this piece of lame joke in the game which I log in occasionally to see the new stuff and the new lameness. And this came from the creator of the game, a title truly well deserved with such a statement being stated on the website.

this is it:

We're aware of the intermittent connection problems. There are some hardware issues at the data center, and we're working on getting a solution in place. Thank you for making like a busy hospital and having lots of patience.

A Kid VS A Teen VS An Adult

2009-01-03T08:56:00.002+08:00

This question popped into my mind yesterday out of the blue. What are the various responses I will get when I asked someone who has committed a mistake this, 'You made a mistake right?'

KID: hahahahaha... (Giggling away gleefully)

Teen: No (with uncertain eyes and a obvious lack of confidence)
ME: You sure?
(And after repeated questioning, the teen confesses)
Teen: YEAH!! I MADE A MISTAKE!! SO WHAT??!!

ADULT: NO. (Firmly and doesn't even bat an eyelid)
ME: Are you sure?
(After repeated questioning, the answer...)
ADULT: NO.

Thinking about the purity of children compared to the rest, I laughed to myself.
Ironically, we were once kids ourselves, and the answers given were so varied.

getting too old

2009-01-03T08:32:00.002+08:00

I think my thinking is seriously getting too old. I'm not even past the halfway mark of my life- or maybe I have already but I don't know - and I am already thinking about death. For the second time in the life, I questioned death right in the face. And to great disbelief of many, the first real time when I thought of death was when I was about 4 or 5 years old. Given my limited experience of life at that age, the only question that popped up in my mind was this, 'What will happen to me when mummy's gone?'

I can still vaguely remember that time, when I thought for a split second, and then the next moment, crying whilst holding onto my mother's leg tightly.

After 18 years of my life, this question came back to me unexpectedly. Perhaps because I saw a sad fact of life; that many people are wasting away their lives, either by living in their own fantasies, or just plain slacking. Then I saw the irony. On the other side of the globe, not literally, there seemed to be people, who were aggressively trying to achieve their goals/dreams. Interestingly, both groups of people share a similar trait. They didn't seem to have the thought of death on their minds.

To the people who were/are wasting their lives away, do they realise the short period of time they have on this planet? And to the people who fight for their dreams, do they ever consider that at the journey's end, everything they had fought for would come to naught? Their faces do not even show a tint of 'death will eventually come my way and why am I still doing this?'

At the end of life's journey, will I still be able to remember whatever I have done/achieved? Perhaps. So, do I give up on achieving whatever I want? No.

I figured that it all boiled down to the experiences we gain when we undertake something. And, things not worth doing are those that do not give you the maximum enjoyment. With experiences we gain along the way, and while we may not be able to still know of whatever we had done during our life on Earth, its glad knowing that I made it fruitful. And perhaps, with the experiences we gain, we might just be able to impact upon another person's life.

Striving and achieving greatness is not an act for oneself. While it certainly enriches us, it cannot be achieved with the mentality of doing it for myself. The reason for our existence on Earth is to make this place better for the people around us and the next person that is going to replace my place in this world. And thus, achieving greatness is not for oneself, but for the betterment of the lives of others around.

the love of my life, part 1

2009-01-01T12:30:00.002+08:00

the love of my life is here.

I hate to say it, but i rejected it.

from the bottom of my heart. sorry.

I left this post as part 1, hopefully there will be a part 2. But not in the near future.

messed-up medicine

2009-01-01T11:15:00.002+08:00

there are many myths on the dangers of modern medicine, like they reduce bone mass, or have several severe side effects when taken or applied. A common drug that we take, Panadol, consists of paracetamol, which can be said to have bone mass reducing 'capabilities' according to 'ancient folklore from housewives'. Aspirin, a painkiller, as diagnosed by modern medicine can cause a build up of stomach acid, and must be taken with another medicine to reduce its devastating impacts it has on the stomach.

In my life, I have always been ill-advised not to take too much medicine of any kind. either way, I was told that taking medicines of any form is bad for health, somehow, due to the various side effects it has.

But then again, if taking it damages my health a little but i still get to live, why not? why choose to die when i can choose to damage my health a little for living longer??

these folklore and thinking, totally makes no sense.

what if its not new year today?

2009-01-01T10:33:00.002+08:00

Since the start of yesterday, on 31 of december 2008, I have been waiting for an idiot/joker/clown to come tell the world that 'hey! we just missed the new year you dorks. New year's day was 3 days ago.'

for whatever reasons this joker might come up with, eg. calculation error. that we used to think that the year is 365 and 1 quarter days. But in fact, it might only be 365 and 1 eighth day. who knows! and we might already have missed the bloody countdown and even new year's day.

I just cant wait for this idiot to prove all the dorks who are celebrating new year's day wrong.

Happy new year?

2009-01-01T10:27:00.002+08:00

Happy new year? i wonder if its really happy. what if its not a happy new year? what if its an eventful new year, or an exciting new year, or maybe sad new year. perhaps. it might even be ostentatious new year, or extravagant new year. why must it be happy. or perhaps, just perhaps, a jubilant new year. Or maybe an emotional new year, considering that there are still 2 groups of people crying. The first group belongs to the people in the financial markets, who has seen their net worth fall a hundred thousand times already. Maybe even more. The second group is the people who have been seen crying at the countdown party. god knows for what reasons!!

is it really a happy new year? and maybe we should not have wished everyone a happy new year, for it just might not be a happy new year.

challenging conventions, i prefer to say 'Let's celebrate and weep at the same time on the arrival of the new year. Who knows what might happen and what year it might be, but lets make it great/bad'

The Relationships

2008-12-28T10:09:00.002+08:00

This post is merely meant to voiced my displeasure and show the disgruntled self to everyone on another of my failure. I'm sorry if the posts these days seems to get more and more reflective, perhaps its NS thats making me rethink about my life, my future, and my direction. Or perhaps, its just me having a heart full of tears.

Official school life is over for me, and that is a weird feeling. I cannot really explain it, for its a mix of many feelings. The 2 most obvious feelings are that of contradiction, where I feel that its a relief, whilst feeling a sense of missing school. The days of traveling to school in my parents' car, the days where I travel home with friends, the days where even though no one seems to be going home like you but you're bound to meet someone along the way, I will miss them all. The uniform that we always complain of, the constant nagging from the teachers(especially since I get these more than the average student), and the environment of being restricted by rules and regulations, I will miss them all. Without homework, without grades target to fulfil, without the need to fulfil expectations of teachers, I feel a sense of relief.

Not so recently ago, I changed my status to 'in a relationship' on facebook. The truth behind the change is because I don't feel ready all of a sudden to accept someone. If you think its somewhat of a deterrence, it is. Its always at the last moment and I back out. Its not a lack of confidence or anything of that sort. Just as that John Mayer song is titled,'I don't trust myself with loving you', its the exact same feeling I have inside me. I choose to believe that its much better for my other half to love me more than I love her. Until I can believe that I can trust myself with loving you, then maybe I might. Or maybe, I just might find someone that really loves me more than I love her.

Anyhows, I got my plan laid out for the next 20-30 years of my life. Maybe even longer. And this might involve me moving from nation to nation, border to border. And who knows, I might actually get someone from outside borders who actually loves me more than I love her.

Until then...

The Council Interview

2008-12-27T11:03:00.002+08:00

I was watching TV yesterday, and I got reminded of the MJ council interview I went for more than a year ago. And I must say I failed. Not in the responses I gave to the questions posed to me. Not in the way that people told me I failed in. Not in the way that other people were more impressive than me. Not in the way where other people are more capable than me. I failed in the WAY I answered those questions.

I totally lost the plot. I didn't have the attitude. The true mentality of really wanting to do it. I had dreams, had ambitions, and I swear I could have it achieve, only if I was the council president. But these were never really enough to make me succeed. I reckoned, with the attitude and the ambitions I carried with me, I would never have succeeded anyway. I had those ambitions, to prove a point. To prove that I was capable, which I think many people already knew and it may seem redundant to prove something which is already proven, except in the case of Mathematical Induction.

Something that stuck with me until now. And that is the response I gave to the question posed by Mr Yeow.

Question: What are you most fearful of?
Answer: I am afraid of not doing things well, not being able to succeed when I think I should have. I am afraid of not being able to do things perfectly. I am a perfectionist, and only with this mentality, only then can I achieve perfection.

now that i think of this answer, I would think that if I were asked this question again, I would not answer the same way and give the same response I did. Below is the response I would give.

Answer: I am extremely fearful of not being able to do things perfectly. Not because I always make mistakes or that I lack in confidence, but only then will I be constantly reminded of the people involved. The people who expected me to succeed, I cannot let them down. While in the school environment, the area of impact may seem small, but bringing it out to the big picture, the area of impact to the people involved may be greater. Akin to the thoughts of a surgeon in a surgery, he/she is constantly fearful of the worst case scenario, of not being able to do the surgery perfectly. He/she gets reminded of the family members of the patient, of the hopes and dreams of the patient yet to be fulfilled, and only then can the surgery be a success. I am fearful not in my capacity, but in the capacity that my actions may result in the demise of another.

the uncertain numbers and a windows 7

2008-12-25T23:20:00.003+08:00

windows 7 is apparently going to come out. and hopefully it wont be delayed like vista did. hopefully. it looks kinda sleek, minimal, and hopefully takes on the mould of a definite world-beater. I wont say I am a great fan of windows, but its functionality, its conventional uses, and its familiarity made me stay on. Like the famous saying by the famous me,'A mac gets you laid, a pc gets things done.period.'

this christmas may not be the best I've ever had. I am using the word 'may', in hopes that in the coming 30 mins till the end, it will still be a good one. at least be one etched in my memories. Made a wish yesterday night, but not sure if it will come true. hopefully it will. but i cant wish for much also. if it do come true, it will most definitely be an awesome christmas.

got 2 unknown wishers via sms for christmas. and i got only 2 wishes from unknown people. which is the sad part. how i wish i knew who they were.

Ah Law - The Commando

2008-12-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

Law gave me a phone call just now at night. Apparently he's calling from the commando camp. and he seems to have loads of slack time. And he's coming out in 2 days. I was the 9th person he bothered to call.

seems like another thing learnt from MJ is that i made a real friend there.

relationships

2008-12-06T23:12:00.002+08:00

Saw 2 quotes on relationships, not sure it belonged to whom, but 1 thing is for sure. The person who said it emcompasses immense wisdom in the form of experience.

“Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for awhile and leave
footprints on our heart. And we are never, ever the same.”

“You learn to like someone when you find out what makes them laugh, but you can never truly love someone until you find out what makes them cry.”

trash?

2008-12-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

I saw this somewhere in Bedok, on my way to lunch to Long John Silver.

what the hell?

a question

2008-12-02T08:37:00.002+08:00

I was asked this qn by a surveyor when I was waiting at city hall mrt station while waiting for the 4e ppl to arrive.

Question: "What is your dream salary?"
Answer: "Got this kind of thing one meh? I thought its kinda like as much
as I can possibly earn?"

2girls

2008-11-27T23:24:00.003+08:00

just thought i would share something interesting. anyways, no one reads also. so its almost like no point??

but nonetheless,

enjoy this hilarious piece. in fact, a masterpiece. just to let those 2 people on the list who were apparently being 'googled', you are STALKED.

and its not by me.

and that's scary.

Donald Braswell II - The Jeers To Cheers Winner

2008-11-24T22:48:00.002+08:00

This is a man. His name is Donald Braswell II. He got me going with my river of emotions. He did something impossible, from the crowd of jeering to a whole crowd of cheering, to a whole crowd on their feet. The only man able to do this, is sadly not Barack Obama, but a man, with a simple wish, with a simple dream, and a name of Donald Braswell II.

Background information: Mister Braswell (I ought to be respectful, he earned this respect from me), is a car salesman and a father of 3. He suffered from a crazy car accident 11 years ago and break his vocal chords and was told he couldnt even talk, much less sing. All he wants, is to become a singer again, at the age of 45, with 3 kids, and with the burden to put the food on the table.

He proved a point, in fact 2 points, that even when the harshest setback pushes your back, you fight back. The second point is to have determination to fight a sea of opposition, and win their hearts back like he did.

Barack Obama, you ought to be ashamed of yourself, this man not only showed change, he showed tenacity, showed determination, showed his love for singing, ultimately inspiring every single one of the audience.

Once again, to Mister Donald Braswell II, YOU have my utmost respect.

for 1 more day

2008-11-19T18:35:00.002+08:00

Sorry mitch albom. I took the name of your book as my post title. but really, its for 1 more day. and after this, everything will be over.

Pressing issues lie ahead of me even after tomorrow. Stuff like money issues. Its not that I dont have money, its just that there isn't enough for me to spend, judging on the amount of things I want to buy.

I will be posting some crazy stuff on this blog soon. really crazy stuff, that requires me to think, ponder, and to source deep within me. As of now, I am torn between trying to put them into separate posts, or to put them into a thousand, and might even head to ten-thousand word post. The word count is one thing, the feelings, the thoughts that are being epitomised within is the main and only thing I feel makes me know that whatever I will be doing is really worth it.

I still cannot believe I am going to begin on such an arduous journey, even when the most important thing in my life is yet to be accomplished.

Currently, the most important thing in my life is akin to that of a dark and endless abyss, something that I will not know the result when I try to achieve it and something that I won't even know if I will get to the end of that abyss. Until then, I am going to bank on fate, luck and everything else. I do believe that miracles happen. And when it happens, I hope to be the one to witness it, and to embrace it, and finally to enjoy the crazy feeling of it.

sorry for the disambiguity. If your life is already dark enough and I have just made it a whole lot darker, I sincerely apologise.

lyrebird

2008-11-16T13:15:00.003+08:00

the best bird in the world. only second to mine. okay. that's lame. but look at this bird.

the bird has imitated the camera shutter sound, the camera shutter sound with motor, kookabura. and if its not pro enough, it imitated a chainsaw cutting trees!!! And also have siren alarm!!!

this bird is better than garageband. take that APPLE!

talk about stalking

2008-11-16T11:29:00.001+08:00

talk about stalking...

now. I'm being stalked.

the busstop. again.

2008-11-15T09:07:00.002+08:00

this post will DEFINITELY not record anything down from my take on the A Levels. I find it pointless to comment if the paper was difficult, easy, or whatever other comments I may have made throughout the examination period. If I were to type down whatever I feel about the exams here, will it make me feel better, or rather, will it help me get those As? I don't think so.

the bus stop again merely is another recording of whatever happened at the bus stop. I was walking with chee ching down to the bus stop to go home. We were walking from school all the way to the bus stop, when I suddenly realised that dawn was there too. But sadly, she was with her gang. And the first rule of getting near a girl, is isolation. And so, I couldn't get close to her.

But nonetheless, When the bus came, chee ching and I boarded, and I used my headphones to lightly tap on her back. She looked stunned and I said hi to her in her stunned state. And seriously, that was the first time I said hi to her, because, most of the times she was the one to say hi to me.

this to me was very very very important. something dawned upon me and I realised its importance. Of which I will definitely not post here. Its really my personal feelings and emotions.

I had a dream last time. And for the first time in my life, I realised that the number of friends I have is astounding. Just to compile a list would take me ages. As of today morning, I am doing something. Something that might just take forever to do. But I will try. Try was hard as I will. Watch this space then.

until then, I will involved in something. Something that I feel is of utmost importance to me. I will not fail again. I will not fail like the previous times, where I literally lost to myself. I'm telling myself, not to myself, again.

And I believe I will not, for this is the most important thing in my life now.

The A Levels

2008-11-11T22:45:00.002+08:00

If Xiao Ding Dang can do it, so can you!

LOL! ROFL! LMAO!

ludicrous

2008-11-11T21:07:00.005+08:00

this is a big ludicrous, farcical joke. seriously. why would someone search for something like this online???? Not that I want to comment, but its really showing something. That someone is certainly at least 200-300 notches above me in stalking skills. I wouldnt even have dreamed about doing this online... Seriously. And whoever just searched for that is seriously very free. Very very very free.

on the other side of the story, I have actually generated much more hits per day, which could actually allow me to break my 1400+ hits in a month. If I were to tell you that the post was just a publicity stunt to generate hits on this blog to earn me some money? Haha. Thanks to all those people who have visited this blog in the past week because of these nonsensical reasons.

going further, I have to exclaim that I dont even know the other protagonist of this shakepearean play, but then again, the interest generated here could just gain me a new friend. Just before I make my much feared entry into the army on 8th January 2009. Or rather, a few new friends. These 'potential' new friends include the other protagonist, and other random people who have chanced upon this, and made some comments to me along the way.

100 USD? I just got my cheque of 100+USD from Google for advertising fees. And with the increased interest in my blog, I might just be able to withdraw out another 100 just in the next month. Cool eh? When that day comes, tell me you've been a fan of my blog, and perhaps, just perhaps, you can get a chance to dine with me.

PS: I just got to know that someone else, or rather, someone elses, knows about this nonsensical farce. In the whimsical demeanor that I have been going by these days, your comments have all been deemed as a fallacy in my mind, for I know best what I did, and for what reason I did that. A little random, but, I didnt not expect that this thing would not be seen. This is a damn blog for god's sake. Its online, cool, and lots of people visit it everyday. In what sense do I think that people will not see that post? If I have everything to hide, would I post up my feelings online? Certainly, this has shown itself to be another testimony to my character, one of which is strong, mentally determined, gutsy and flooded with integrity.

The internet, is a very very interesting place to be. Let's celebrate.

The Sarabat Boys - Always Have No Money

2008-11-11T00:45:00.001+08:00

Always Have No Money (Parody) - Power Cruisin Sarabat Boys

SING ALONG!

(VERSE 1)
Things were much cheaper
We remember last time (when policeman wear shorts ah?)
For just one dollar
Prata and Kaka, we both can buy (Prata power!)

Now twenty years later (Wah terok!)
One dollar can only buy
Tissue, Gua Zi and maybe still Prata, but must kosong
Inflation will never die no

(CHORUS 1)
ERP, GST (Hey it rhymes!)
Hits you indefinitely
Petrol price going to reach three (No more discount ah?!)
That’s why we always have no money

And it’ll linger on
Our savings will never be strong (but got GST package what!)
Don’t know how long it’s gonna take me
To save myself some pocket money (Wah long long time ah, long long ah)
(No more money then ask parents lor…)
(Wah! You can steady a bit or not?!)

(VERSE 2)
Last time one gantry (I remember just outside my house!)
Only stood in my way (Wah you super sway!)
Now got so many (Ya lor!)
ERP, Every Road Pay!

Go and fetch my girlfriend (Wah so romantic ah?!)
I will never go again (Why leh?)
Cause I know in my heart *%#*@*!
I will be a poor boyfriend

(CHORUS 2)
Orchard to CTE (Eh, why you go that way?!)
Cashcard beep indefinitely
Why can’t we take MRT? (Government say take mah!)
So that today we save some money

So don’t drive lah (Expensive siah)
Maybe I sell my car (Change weekend lah)
If rain we just take the taxi (Cheaper)
That way I think I will save some money (Save so much money for what? Die also cannot bring along with you)
That way I think we will save some money (This time confirm money not enough)

MJ Maths Dept

2008-10-30T10:19:00.001+08:00

the guy whose name is Mr Vincent Ng is my teacher.

damn farny.

youtube

2008-10-27T08:51:00.002+08:00

quote rob thomas:

"Anybody here works for youtube? I thank you for wasting my time."

regret

2008-10-23T22:49:00.003+08:00

a weird thought dawned upon me. that's not intended to be a pun.

I suddenly imagined myself to be a famous politician getting interviewed while I was studying halfway. then the reporter asked me, what is the biggest regret in your life that you want to tell the people?

I suddenly started talking about this friend whom I used to have. Its a big regret that I havent really spoken to her for a long long time. To think we used to laugh together, it kinda pains? she also used to talk to me with her weird antics. weird weird antics. and if I were to hear her voice without even seeing who it is, I will recognise her voice straightaway. Its so distinctive.

I wished all that have happened didnt happen. but it is not possible and it is only right that I look forward to perhaps try to solve this problem. i guess the thought came to me, cos cheryl for the past few days have been calling me 'xiao ming', something that my friend whom I havent spoken to for a long time used to call me. I can still remember that she saved my hp no. on her phone as 'xiao ming'. which was weird. and cute at the same time.

I can still remember that goodbye that we said. it never felt like the last. never should have felt like the last. but seriously, it was the last. for the longest time.

I am actually very disturbed when cheryl calls me 'xiao ming', cos its something that only a few people know. and its kinda exclusive. and the people who used to call me 'xiao ming' seems to drift away from me. rapidly. just like the friend of mine whom I have yet to speak to for ages.

an exact quote from her, 'well, dont worry, i think i was wrong to. i didnt know that some things can be so confusing. well. anw im glad all things are over. and yes do hope to say hi to you in school too. but (erm) i dont think i'll initiate it much coz, it will feel a little weird. no doubt if the situation allows, i'll say hi. yupp:D'.

and I think that just spells it all dont it? It's kinda unlikely that she will initiate something like a hi, or a meetup to perhaps make the air less stale. She doesnt read this, and I dont think she will. so yeah.the chances are like? low...

I want to believe that she will. but I have a crazy feeling that this will become the biggest, biggest regret of my life.

facebook.

2008-10-23T22:44:00.002+08:00

there's this girl called lydia nah. and she caught me attention on facebook. not that i'm a stalker. and I even heard from yane that she's like his classmate's cousin. And seriously, if i'm a stalker, I wouldnt have told yane about her. the story goes like this.

I was randoming on facebook. went to the friends you may know list. and started to refresh the page like crazy. then i realised that they only shuffle the first 2 rows of the people. cheapo! like that also call shuffle. then I noticed something different.

someone on the list, who is from my school, and also someone who I dont know, CHANGED PROFILE PIC LIKE 3-4 TIMES IN LIKE 20 MINS?????

after telling yane, then i was like, J2 still got time to change profile pic on facebook like 3-4 time??? smart lor. like that guy I always see in the library, reading magazines and not his notes. he looks like he's ready to take the GREAT A's anytime and score like ALL A's...

and that obviously caught my attention. which idiot wouldnt kena caught attention??

Dawn

2008-10-23T22:22:00.003+08:00

just thought i would dedicate this post to dawn. somehow. and this would actually make my blog more organised.

this post is actually like 1 day late. I actually wanted to post this thing yesterday. but hey, now that its here, its better than not being here.

I was actually very shocked and happy. yesterday. cos I remember that ben lim told me before that dawn dont like to go to the library. so the chances of meeting her in the library would actually be a zero possibility. maybe not. maybe its a non-zero possibility. maybe, its just a very very very low possibility. close to no hope/no chance. but seemingly, fate seems to like putting its hand into this funny probability.

I met dawn in the library.

breaking news man.

actually, to be honest, i didnt really notice her in the library when she first entered. partly because ezra was blocking my view of seeing whoever that was coming into the library. and also partly that I REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO SEE HER IN THE LIBRARY! another reason would be that my upper torso was shaking uncontrollably. I was just laughing hysterically like a madman. Couldnt really control myself and see what's really happening around me. And when I really do, its like I was doing my work already. and i saw her doing her own work also. So I didnt really want to bother her, by randomly saying hi and going there to talk. So I figured, I would say hi to her when I will need to walk past her. Which is when I have a problem with my math problem, and I have to ask neng, who is apparently sitting somewhere further away from where dawn is sitting.

but in the end, I didnt manage to say hi. the situation was kinda bizarre. Cos i realised that I needed my complex 3 notes today. and I lost it. so I ran out of the library in a huff to find my notes. of which I couldnt find. Then dawn came out and I was still frantically looking for me notes. after a while, dawn walked past me, waved her hands past my line of sight, and said hi. which left me dumbfounded for a moment.

for the second time, she said hi to me first before I did. which in a sense i feel extremely happy.

extremely.

and guess what, today I saw her again. having GP consultation. didnt have the chance to say hi though. feel quite wasted. ha.

I think seeing dawn in the library AGAIN will take A WHOLE LOTTA FATE, LUCK AND EVERYTHING ELSE to be on my side. I certainly do hope to be able to see her and talk to her in the library again. but ha! I think that's kinda... unlikely.

and certainly, she's not reading this, so she wouldnt know that I do hope to see her in the library. so yeah.

may luck, fate and a whole lotta other things be with me.

and dawn.

the priority seat

2008-10-23T08:24:00.002+08:00

ever noticed the priority seats on the mrt trains? I know this seems kinda late, since the priority seat thing has already been in place for some time already. But I took some time along the way home everyday to ponder over this tiny issue. And as the days pass, I realised that the situation is not as easy as I thought it was. And this is how it all started.

Background Information: I usually give up my seat when I see someone, eg. Elderly, children, or people with disabilities.

Shane asked me along the way to VS.
shane: why are you sitting on the priority seat?
me: because i dont want any other people to sit on it.
shane: reason?
me: Because if i'm sitting on it, and I see someone worth giving up my seat, I will. But for another person that may sit on this particular seat, he/she might not have done what I would have done. And that priority seat purpose becomes self-defeating.

And since that day onwards, I have always been sitting on the priority seat. Its because I know Singaporeans too well. They would not give up their seats for people in need. Or at least for the most of them, they will not.

Then, as I pondered on further, something caught my attention on how myopic I may seem, despite the great purpose of me sitting on the priority seat. What if there is another person like me, someone who will gladly give up his/her seat for the needy? Or rather, the priority seat arrangement could well 'force' the person sitting on it to give it up, for fear of being labelled as 'selfish'. And if i were to sit on another seat, it doesnt mean that I cannot give up my seat like before. In a different light, it just means that there are now 2 people willing and ready to give up seats on the train. Isn't that a better alternative.

And even after this thought, I realised that Singaporeans are still selfish, for the most part. and I continued to occupy the priority seat.

pressing on to find the perfect solution, I pondered further. How to define the needy? How to define someone who needs the seat more than I do? For the part about people with children and the disabled, that pretty easy. But for the elderly part, I think its extremely difficult. Except for those who are apparently very very old already. But how often do these people travel?? Very little in fact. And the bulk of the elderly travelling are usually the ones who are still fit and able to travel long distances. And if I were to give up my seat for them, would it imply that I am treating them like an elderly. Even when they dont think they are, and they might just think that I am making them look very old.

considering these, I came to a reasoned conclusion. I will not sit on the priority seat again. I will in fact take my chances and hope that someone who will gladly give up their seats will sit on theat priority seat. and as for me, I dont want to make that awful decision that will make people seem old.

I will sit on that seat next to the priority seat.=)

the 12am

2008-10-18T08:47:00.002+08:00

last night, 12am, i was feeling hyper and bored. for no apparent reason. so i decided. maybe look for some people to sms and maybe ask about their enlistment status. and guess what, i smsed wrong and smsed cheryl instead. luckily she was awake, so that i can have someone to random to.

for the first time, i was 'complimented' to be a very interesting person. its an exact quote. and i cant believe my response. even at 12am plus, i'm still so very awake and my responses were, intelligent.

An excerpt of The 12am.(in smses)
cheryl: you do know that you're a very interesting person right. haha!...
Me: I take that as a compliment. but as every interesting person is made, he/she needs a very interesting listener. Oh. Is that a compliment for you? I think it is:)
cheryl: i find whatever you say fascinating. if next time i wanna travel to europe..., ... must ask you along.
Me: (rattles on something about europe)
me: and yeah. I forgot to add. I'm no tour guide. I reckon a tour guide might do a much better ob in introducing europe:) but then again, by sacrificing a litttle less knowledge for more fun, then i think i'm better than a tour guide. Haha. Self praise is international disgrace. Night!
cheryl: Haha! you are damn funny. Good night =)

so damn random at 12am. i cant help it. dunno why also. and the I realised that many people NS enlistment is not confirm yet. and then i saw khairy fadhly ytd morning. he told me he suay suay enter Civil Defence. haha. dunno why they post him there also. weird.

and i checked for my enlistment status like more than 10 times ytd. including via telephone. so i think they might be saying,'this guy is one despo nut trying to enter NS. let's just put him in so that he wont clog up our servers anymore!'

and they just might. =)

lady luck, fate and a whole lotta chance.

2008-10-17T08:16:00.002+08:00

this is one of the craziest things i've ever seen, done, or witnessed with my own eyes.

i was just talking to blim that i wanted to go to sch on thurs, even though i am not taking the chem mock papers. I didnt pay the ridiculous 5 bucks for it. the reason for me going to sch? I wanted to see if i can accidentally bump into dawn. But of course, the main focus for me going to sch would still be to study...

of which, ben and i were like talking and talking. until it came to this. a weird, stupid and corny idea on how to create the chance ourselves. cornily.

The Idea. (an excerpt from msn.)
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i think tmrw must like reacon the sch for her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: if not my chance gone
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: unless fate so good
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :that heng heng can see again
ben: recon you mean
ben: haha
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: same la
ben: i can always ask her where she is
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: tell me where good locations?
ben: then you can 'chance' upon her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i cannot right
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :then very weird right
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: u ask then i bump
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: ???
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: its good la
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: but like...
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: very fake
ben: haha
ben: then you have to do it the normal way lor
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: but i doubt she would know it also lor
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then imagine this scenario happening
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: u ask her where she is
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: you tell me
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15. :then u go meet her
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i 'happen' to be there
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i go 'hey ben!'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: and then, turning to her, 'hey. you. 2 days ago we met at photocopy shop'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i turn back to you,' you know her?'
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: i reckon you would laugh at this time
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: then i wwould turn to her, with a fake tone, 'oh you both know each other... what a small world!(corny man.)'
ben: haha
ben: yup
ben: that would be freaking corny
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: most likely i would like ask her for her name
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: cornily
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: hey
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: want to try that tmrw?
J u n J i e 'JJ' [Victorian] the MF15.: we see if my prediction is right
ben: dun think so
ben: i think itll spoil my reputation sia

and to think after discussing so much nonsense. ben didnt agree to it. and i dont reckon that this would be needed. considering what happened to me=)

being lazy, i didnt bother going to sch. or rather i woke up kinda late. so i was like, argh! sch today? might as well go and meet shane,changyang and chris to study. so i just msged shane and it was settled. left the house at 11 plus. i can still rmb trying to run for the bus 89 from the overheard bridge near my house. and when i boarded, i said my usual 'thank you' to the bus captain for waiting for me. and surprisingly, i got a smile in return, which was very nice. afterwhich, i met yen kenn at the mj bus stop and he boarded the bus 89. didnt really talk to him, except to give him the weird stare the the eyebrow thing. after that, i alighted at the stop where i still have to walk to the mrt station. at this point in time, i was like, hopeless alr la. cannot bump into dawn anymore. but then again. fate didnt let me off. which i am very thankful for.

and as i was walking into the pasir ris mrt station, i saw someone very familiar. hmmm. so i hastened my pace. and when i reached the escalator, i was like,"wth! wth! wth!". the first instinct was for me to sms blim on my outrageous luck and the fact that fate was gripping me tightly. it was total madness. the probablity of me able to meet dawn in sch is like 1 in 1 million? since, i;m like constantly cooped up in the library:). and now, to be able to bump into her at the train station, that's a probability of 1 in more thatn 1 billion!!! pure,pure madness. and so, i set off. upon walking along the train carriages, i realised i lost track of where she walked to. and it was quite a whirlwind. since i entered the train, and i was looking at which way she went. and then i realised i couldnt see her around. and i turned my head at the train doors. the doors slammed shut. for a moment, i felt like i was in a prison of no return.

walking on, i realised the train was quite packed. then i saw dawn again. sitting down. and to my disbelief, despite the packness of the train, which was obscenely filled with people, there were obscene numbers of seats opposite where dawn was sitting. and to me, at that particular point in time, i could feel adrenaline pulsing through my blood vessels. cos, i was like, argh no hope. then suddenly hope just appeared in my hands. so a little shocked and caught unaware. i just sat down opposite her and pretended that i didnt see her when i came in. after a whole flurry of smses that i had to reply to, namely to shane, ben lim, ben tan and my mom. i looked up. and the best thing happened to me=)

dawn waved and said hi. argh. i bet i must have melted away at that point if i were a candle wax.

being the calm guy i was, i waved back and said hi. pulled down my headphones and she started talking to me. below is the tiny excerpt. of which i think i can gurantee its 100% accurate. the thing will remain in my mind.

the all importan converstion!
dawn: you going out to study?
me: yeah. (then giving that trademark smile). you?
dawn: i'm going home. (and somehow, my trademark smile was return back to me in style. meaning=she smiled at me as she said that)
then she stood up and walked to the train door, and as she walked to the train door, she walked towards my direction and said goodbye. which was very melting. considering that she walked over to me to say goodbye.
dawn: see you.
me: see you. (at this point in time, i was waving my hands, and it hit the metal bars with a freaking loud 'thud!'. i swear that hurt. until now)
me: ouch!
dawn: (she just smiled/laughed.)
me: hey! i didnt see you when u were sitting just opposite me! (i said cornily, since i sorta knew that she was sitting opposite me alr.)
dawn: you were busy smsing mah.(this shows that she was observing me alr!)
me: (insert trademark smile)
me: hey wait. i thought afternoon got chem paper 1?
dawn: (smiling) haha. i only go for paper 3.
me: haha.
dawn: see you!
me: see you!

and that's it. i'm very sure i will see her again... thanks to lady luck, fate and a whole lotta chance.

nihon-go

2008-10-15T22:44:00.002+08:00

Ms. ????はとても素敵な女性で、一緒に居られて最高です

the long post...

2008-10-15T03:00:00.000+08:00

i realised that the past few posts have either been slipshod or have just been posted for the sake of posting. seriously. it doesnt really give much or any information about my life so far, with 20 days left to a levels. and with the usual many things that happen in my life, it will really take a long of time to actually type all down here. but regardless, i WILL try.

1) facebooking
jon oh's moving house. with his few cents pay a month. he saved up for about 100 years for that new house. but either way, i havent been to his house at the savannah. its supposedly to be a damn sweet and nice condo. wonder where's he is moving to... randomising on the ze wei's photo, in another attempt to make it the most commented photo in facebook. i seriously think we have done it alr. but i still not sure. might need to source for confirmation from facebook. and then randomising on people wall. and i think that's all.

2) was walking home on one fine day, walking through the eunos mrt station. as usual, i was plugged up on my wireless headphones. suddenly, there was this indian lady who looked to be around 20 something came up to me. she told me she was an ex-convict and was like asking if i considered giving ex-convicts a chance in society. being the nice guy i am, of course i wouldt mind la. i was like super open to whatever she was saying. apparently, she was asking for donations. and below is the excerpt of the conversation.
Indian lady(IL): Hey. I just want to ask you a few questions. do you give ex-convicts a chance in society?
me: erm. yeah.
IL: I am an ex-convict myself, and I am currently doing a project to help ex-convicts. I'm sure you would have spent like hundreds of dollars on yourself in shopping a month right?
me: erm. haha. i dont think so.(i really dont spend so much, and i dont really shop)
IL: all i want is a small donation.(at this point i'm still quite open, i usually donate one. i rmb buying a useless china pen from china for 2 bucks just to help some home) Do you have 5 dollars?
me: (i suddenly rmb that i paid for lots of things in sch, like exam papers and stuff. which almost sapped me of about 40 bucks.) erm. i dont think i have.(i'm quite honest huh?)
IL: what about 2 dollars?
me: i dont have also. becos today i just...(i actually wanted to continue by saying that i paid for lots of sch stuff today and didnt have money leftover)

and before i could finish my sentence, she just walked off. without even listening to whatever i wanted to finish saying or even just a simple 'thank you'. apparently, the logic is: i didnt have money on me, she wanted money, and becos i dont have it, there isnt a need to bother about me. how rude is that??? i really couldnt stand it at that point in time. it was very sudden. i was left standing there wondering what the hell in the whole wide world had just happened. how can a person just suddenly walk away after attempting to get money from me. and i can still rmb that the smile on the IL face was WIPED CLEAN OFF the moment i said i didnt have money on me. which was the truth.
I really want to give ex-convicts a chance in society, but that no-show was clearly given me the clear signal that i seriously dont have the obligation to do so.

3) on a lighter note, I want to commend YU KEE DUCK RICE at BEDOK INTERCHANGE. although i dont sound like a credible source since i'm like a regular customer of that store. that fine day, i went to order duck rice. and the store seemed a little more chaotic than usual. it took sometime for the guy to take my order, but i was fine with that. suddenly, i saw a very old lady limping very slowly by the sides of tables, apparently looking for something. then the guy at the store asked in Hokkien if the old lady had dropped her wallet. people around started to take notice then. the old lady seemed uncertain of what she dropped. dunno if its true, but it did seem that way to me. the store guy kept on asking her, almost to an extent of brainwashing her to believe that its her wallet. maybe cos when people get older, our memory starts to fail. then the old lady said that that wallet is hers, in a very miniscule and soft tone. the store guy walked up to her and passed her the purse. a tiny black purse. and he told her not to drop it on the floor again. i happen to see her open her purse to check if anything was missing, cos the guy told her to check. inside didnt seem to have obscene amounts of money. neither did it have wads of notes or even a few notes. it was just a few coins, and perhaps a 2 dollar note. i couldnt see well. but there was something of which i saw clearly. crystal clear. the smile on the old lady's face cannot be emulated in any other form. the sheer exhilaration on her face was a perfect testimony to the good work of the guy at YU KEE DUCK RICE. a great act that made the day of another person.

4) have been listening to bold as love. both the john mayer version at where the light is concert and the continuum album version. the where the light is version had a part where john mayer started to talk. he was talking about finding ways in life. of what he did for himself. and he came to a conclusion. he said it was corny, he said that its LOVE that is the plain driving force for everything. not the type of love we are thinking about. it about synthesising love for something, to someone, its that kind of love described as "i-got-your-back-love". but to me, when i first heard it, i didnt really feel much towards those words. but after a very alone time in VS, where i am attempting to come to a conclusion myself. i was thinking for deeply for a whole 20 mins. just standing by the koi pond in VS at night, where there was only the light in the canteen and the dark outdoors to keep my company. looking at the koi pond, i was thinking, where i want to go from here? I want to be like John mayer, MAKING THINGS HAPPEN FOR MYSELF. its difficult i reckoned. then i thought. and thought. seriously, its just love. i decided to find a way to synthesise love for my subjects i taking for a levels for the rest of the days until the exams. for, the only way to make things happen for myself, is to synthesise love for my subjects, only then can i do well in it. I am not a man to do things blindly, not in my defintion. and i'm going to start MAKING THINGS HAPPEN FOR MYSELF.

5) today morning, sat on the study benches while waiting for the maths paper to start. ben lim came up and we sat next to each other talking about random things. as usual. then suddenly, he asked me...
blim: you havent told me who your friend is
me: oh. haha, he's from her class. and he's a him.
blim: you not jealous meh?
me: no. not at all. even in a relationship, we must understand that its still 2 people. 2 different people with different personal lives and different social circles, to a certain extent. I wouldnt want to and dont have the energy to control her life. she want to do what then she do lor. no point me trying to tell her what to do.
blim: this reminds me of what changyang said of love. he said that love is like holding sand in your hands. hold too tight then the sand will flow out. hold to loose the sand will also flow out. so must hold it nicely to an extent which dont jeopardise both parties. but i hold her(pointing to his gf) very tightly. and she still never run away. haha!
me: haha!
i guess it differs from people to people. but as usual, changyang was darn right. the sand thing? totally right. and that's just my modus operandi.

6) was asked to the airport cos cheryl asked me to study there with her on monday. went there, got a big shock. got a lot of mj people. almost to the extent which i felt mj sorta owned the place. i thought i saw cherish there. but then again, i'm not that sure. cos that girl whom i thought was cherish looked very pretty. and i didnt really know whether's its her. anyhow, i didnt really bother. then after studying a while, cheryl used her hp to tell me that she thinks the girl sitting to my right is pretty, dunno which one she talking about. so my natural reaction is to smile. and i did. after that, i went home.

7) just met george today to pass some super secretive thing from ben tan to him. i dont even know what the hell is that. all i knew was that i was told to pass the thing to george the way it is. and i did. and i finshed the courier service.

8) Law kena commando. just like lee jin. law confirm enlistment on 12 december 2008. nothing to change that fact now. he's a sad kid. but for me, mine isnt confirm yet. i checked with the NS portal. and the weird thing for me is that i checked like 6-7 times in 24hours. i think the NS people will think i crazy. then they might think, better sort this guy out quick, before, he keep coming back to jam our servers with his crazy enquiries about his enlistment status. haha. if i suay, i MIGHT just get confirmed tomorrow.

9)this is the last paragraph i'm going to write. i'm really tired. devote this to the most important.
in sch today. saw dawn twice. first time was in the morning. when blim and i were walking to the lt to take the maths mock paper. then i saw dawn and my natural reaction was to grab blim by his sleeve. i somehow got uber excited and almost caused blim to fall down the steps. the second meeting was at the photocopy shop. it was a whirl of events and i didnt really take note. the scenario? i wanted to get a copy of the math mock answers, then i smsed ben tan to help me order. but being me, i went down to get ben tan to order for me, since he alr in the queue. after which i went to talk nonsense with blim in the canteen, who was playing his rubiks cube. then he asked me why i here. so i told him i ordering math mock answers. and he also wanted one. but ben tan also left for the lib. so the order alr processed. then i saw law and nien xiang queuing. so i told ben lim, can, i order for you. so i left my seat and walked over to law. after ordering from law, started to talk cock again with law and nien xiang. suddenly, when its our turn to order, then did i realised that dawn was behind us all the while. law asked her whatever she wanted so can order together. apparently, its the same as us. plus 4 h2 econs mock answers. so when the order was made, law somehow forgot to order the econs. haha. it was realised after everyone was out of the queue.

they were thinking, aiya. must requeue again. but me being me, i saw justin james in the queue. so i told justin to help order the h2 econs mock answers. at first it was weird. cos dawn and co were like stunned and was going like 'queue again?' then i pointed at justin to his bewilderment and said, can make use of people in the queue to order stuff. then they were like stunned. so i just went over to justin and said,'4 h2 econs mock exam answer, thanks'. of course he was okay la. i knew him. then dawn and co realised that the order been made, and no thanks to me,but more to justin for being in the queue at the right time. after that, i talked to justin about his brother, of which he was shocked to hear that i knew his brother. got the h2 econs papers and passed em to dawn. then after that i went to take blim's math paper to pass it to him. during which we had this tiny conversation.
blim: hey. busy talking to dawn ah?
me: haha. (grinning from ear to ear)
then i walked back. then dawn realised that they ordered too little. not enough. so had to requeue again. then i saw brian, hongan bandmate. hehe. make use of friends again. wanted to ask him to order stuff for dawn again. then i was reminded that if dawn were to queue again, it would make no difference, cos dawn was just in the queue behind brian and shi rong. haha shi rong. after that, dawn queued and law,nien xiang and i went to the lib.

hopefully, me using me friends to help dawn and her friend can help me to boost their opinion of me at the same time. heard from blim that its quite difficult to get a good opinion from them. argh. difficult siah. hopefully. just hopefully. dawn remembers me. haha. and hopefully got good opinion. hopefully. haha. i feel i'm on my way!!

so long post. so darn long.

ze wei basketed

2008-10-09T22:55:00.002+08:00

this is how i basketed ze wei...

u cant be a bigger fan of JM than me!there aint NO SUCH THING!
JM is BIGGER THAN MY BODY.and everytime i listen to him, all I hear is CLARITY and there a tinge of SPLIT SCREEN SADNESS in me. His songs always make me feel that YOUR BODY IS A WONDERLAND. Its kinda like a BELIEF the the forces of GRAVITY is making me BOLD AS LOVE. and well, sometimes...I DONT TRUST MYSELF WITH LOVING YOU. Its a good thing that JM has most VULTURES-like fans now, rather than just keep WAITING ON THE WORLD TO CHANGE. DAUGHTERS love to listen to his songs, and so do sons. Russia makes me go WHY GEORGIA, with the occasional NEON light in my room flickering.i measure dthe light,its 3X5.Pardon MY STUPID MOUTH for spouting nonsense. How i wish I could STOP THIS TRAIN. But, I just cant, I just CANT TAKE THAT PLANE.these days, i've been sad and how i wish my heart can be IN REPAIR, as i am DREAMING WITH A BROKEN HEART to regain
THE HEART OF LIFE,to imagine myself SLOW DANCING IN A BURNING ROOM with a hot babe... ooh

that for claiming to be a john mayer fan on facebook.

=)

a question

2008-10-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

my friend asked me a question.

would you rather someone approach you to tell you that he/she likes
you? Or would you rather go tell the person yourself?

i'm a lazy person. i think i wouldnt go up to tell the person...

that's for being lazy.

open house

2008-10-04T11:08:00.003+08:00

woke up late. went to sch late. just in time for a little time in the library and then to go for bio. walking along the route to go to the library, saw many things happening. like some ridiculous fan blowing the plastic thing up... people were all doing ridiculous things around. then happened to walk past the guitar ensemble booth. saw chee ching with dunno who there. then ran off to the library to finish some nonsense work. afterwhich, went to hand up the bio mock exam paper.

walking back to the library, saw chee ching and arvind playing guitar there. seems like the guitar ensemble brought their electric and bass guitars. so i walked to the garden-like area where there were plugged up and just chatted for a moment. after a short dang while, hong han and peng wee saw me from the corridor and they also walked to the garden to chat. then yane came. not surprisingly, owning the people playing guitar there. with the guitar ensemble people staring at him when he was playing bold as love and just doing this thing on the guitar. soon after, it was bio.

bio ended as fast as it started. rushed to the library to do something. then as i was walking along the same corridor, saw mong on the guitar, and brian next to him. stood there for a bried moment before i was convinced to pick up the guitar to do something. started to jam out with people starting to look in my direction. didnt really play well, according to my standards. maybe cos i compared myself to john mayer... then there was this random guy who apparently knew that i was playing john mayer stuff and was like asking me to play more. cant stop, gravity, daughters, better be home soon, collide, no such thing, belief were all on the song list of the songs played, with the occasional random me playing hideaway. people were looking, friends were wondering why i could play the guitar, j1s started to stand up and look in my direction(maybe cos i got into my john mayer frenzy, playing the guitar like a crazy man, with the bendings being too wicked to take.) not bad for a first public 'gig'.

saw jim and we decided to go home. along the way i saw blim. peng wee was there with his 'supposedly close girl-friend' decided to '-' the girlfriend, cos dunno their exact relationship yet, but i just assume its rather close. so blim and i were like laughing like crazy. and i couldnt convince them enough to take a photo of them with us in the foreground.

note: there was something rather awkward that i 'thought' took place during bio lecture. i was at my usual 'staring-at-some-random-thing-while-i-am-thinking-of-something-else' mood. for people who dont know, i can just stare at you and dont know that i am staring at you because i am thinking about another thing. then i just so happen to stare at some random place in front of me. apparently, its someone's back. but of course, i didnt really take note or know. suddenly, the person sitting next to the person whose back i was apparently staring at turned back and saw me. i happened to take note of this because i finished thinking what i wanted to think about. suddenly, the person whose back i was apparently staring at was told to turn back and see who is staring at her. before long, i knew who it was. i didnt attempt to shovel my face somewhere, but just lightly turn my head to the right to look at something else. its was awkward,yes. but like i said long ago and i will say it again. until that person is ready to speak to me, then i will be ready to listen to whatever you want to say. if you are still not ready, then i will not be ready as well.

it works both ways, just so you know.

bus 15

2008-09-26T23:07:00.008+08:00

i took bus 15 home today. a few reasons. see below.
1) I wanted to 'accidentally' bump into someone else.
2) I wanted to check if the frequency of bus 15 is very very fast.
3) I wanted to see how long it took for me to go home.
4) I wanted to do item no 1. really. really.

I waited at the bus stop. a bus 15 came. and i didnt take it. hoping that i would still bump into that person i want to 'accidentally' bump into. After some waiting, about 15 mins later, another bus 15 came. Well, i seriously didnt feel like taking it again. But after a split second thought, i took it. i boarded the bus, and item number 1 didnt seem like it would be fulfilled. and it didnt. at least item no 2 and 3 got fulfilled.

then came the weird thing. apparently weird things seem to happen only to me.

the girl on the bus conundrum
I was at this particular stop, where it seemed to be flooded with secondary school kids. in my mind, it was like, 'argh!'. sometimes, it would take a lot of mental strength to bear a bus load of secondary school kids. especially their noise. but surprisingly, not many boarded the bus. only about a handful boarded the bus, making me feel more at ease. suddenly, a girl started to walk up in my direction. there was this tinge in her facial expression that she was eyeing the seat next to me.(cos i was sitting at the last row on the bus, with a seat to my right empty. i didnt move in to sit inside because it was wet.) there was an empty seat in front of me. with a guy sitting on the inside. seeing that it was impossible to traverse past me, she sat in that seat. since the seat on my left was also occupied by a guy.

after the guy on my left alighted, she looked back for a moment, then moved back and sat next to me. then i thought to myself, its not like a common move to suddenly move back to sit next to me when you are already seated happily and nicely in front of me. the question is, why would she suddenly come and sit next to me when she already seated down nicely in front of me???

okay. i'm not being ego or something. but this thing really happened. and both of us also stopped at the same stop. weirdly true. both of us still walked for some distance together via the same route.

truly weird. weirdly true.

somebody answer my question?

technician

2008-09-24T08:04:00.000+08:00

A landlord one day discovered that his airconditioning system was not working well. He called for a technician.

Soon enough, the technician came with his tools. He started his work by first taking out a spanner and started knocking on the cooling pipes. After knocking for about 5 minutes, he stopped knocking and started to loosen a nut and removed some residue. He replaced the nut and calls it a day.

The Air conditioner started to work normally again.

So the land lord said," That looks simple enough. How much do I owe you?"

The technician replied "$350."

Furious, the landlord argued, "$350 my foot! I saw you knocking about and adjusted only one nut and you're charging me $350?"

The technician said "Yes $350. $50 for knocking and adjusting. $300 for knowing where to knock and what to adjust!"

HOUSE MD

2008-09-20T01:30:00.002+08:00

how i wish this i could say to someone. but then again, the same goes, i dont trust myself with loving you.
its true. everybody lies. even i do... sometimes...
HOUSE MD, simpsons style.
its so damn complex. then got this crazy woman. dr cameron. who at first likes House then after that scandal with another male doctor. i think she's crazy already. seriously. it just makes the show bad. how i wish this part can just delete. quite redundant.

house md. a good show to watch.

provided you can stay up until this late to watch this show.

i can...

what about you?

current: feelings

2008-09-19T10:25:00.003+08:00

my feelings can be summed up in a few videos.

this is what i have been feeling for the past 18 years.

Something that always happen to me. maybe not always. but definitely once in a while.

the reason why i dislike getting into relationships with people.

I want to tell myself that there is no such thing as an unfair world. I want to tell myself that there is no such thing as tiredness, only craziness.

everyday i tell myself wait until tomorrow then i can relax and enjoy myself.

i CERTAINLY have the blues everyday.

200 guitars!!! this is stunt-tastic.

SING to the DAWN

2008-09-18T13:48:00.002+08:00

stupid blim ask me to watch SING to the DAWN. he say this title very apt to me... Well, i cant say its not. but either way, he just basket-ing me. together with kenneth tham, who apparently knows the whole story alr. very abstract this paragraph. but its meant to be this way=)

i got the urge to blog, cos i just watch a damn retro john mayer, with david labruyere on bass. sad that david la left mayer alr. he no longer mayer's bassist. just look at john mayer's hair! its freaking retro... its the room for squares hairstyle.

Songwriting

2008-09-16T13:36:00.001+08:00

See more John Mayer videos at Funny or Die

this is how JM does it.

flock.

2008-09-14T08:42:00.001+08:00

this is a test post from me using flock to update my blog. btw, flock is a web browser. if this works, it will be kinda cool that i can update my blog without logging into my blogger account. i am just typing this post as though it is some word document.

haha.

cool

marvels of technology

Blogged with the Flock Browser

birthday?

2008-09-14T00:14:00.001+08:00

its over. and i'm 18.

officially.

thanks to whatever, whoever, and anything that wished me happy birthday via various forms of media.

i am started to love the mass media more...

bad feeling

2008-08-29T21:25:00.002+08:00

Just yesterday, as I was eating my dinner happily, something engulfed me totally. I was going on to drink soup and then a whole lot of bad feelings came crashing down onto me. It didnt have the pain of crashing, it was more like engulfing me, giving me no space to breathe at all. I couldn't eat anymore. It was totally taking over me. And after a while, I started to feel extremely lost and couldn't do anything. So I thought I would take a breather and lean back. But it didnt seem to help either. I couldn't do anything. I was totally helpless. Totally helpless. Then, I started to walk around aimlessly in the house. I was like wandering zombie. Nothing in my mind, just pure feeling of something bad that is about to happen. And worst of all, I know that the something bad is not going to happen onto myself, but someone close to me. I stood by the door of my room, couldn't think, couldn't breathe. For the first time in my life, I was feeling really scared. Really really scared. There was nothing that could help me out of this nonsense. I ran into my room, causing a furore as I dashed into my room. Luckily my family didn't notice me getting into a frenzy. I jumped onto my bed and immediately took a pillow to cover my head. It was pure torturous. I couldn't think. It was like something was engulfing me and I wanted to be protected from it. The sense of something bad going to happen to someone close to me grew stronger, grew stronger and even more stronger. It was just too torturous. For close to 3 mins, I was lying on my bed. Aimlessly, helplessly and hopelessly taking my pillow as my only 'shield' against this bad feeling.

After a few minutes, I didnt feel the bad feeling anymore. It just disappeared. I know something really really really bad is about to happen. But I dont know what and when!! I dont!! that's the crazy part!! Its going to happen!!! Its really really really going to be something really bad!!!

I would rather choose to believe that I can prevent this from happening to that someone close to me. But, these things are hard to predict, making the solution to solving these things even harder to predict. How I wished that it would all happen upon me and not on others...

I made a deal with ??? It wasn't the right answer I was looking to solving the problem. But it was your answer as to how you wanted it solved. I promised that I will leave if you would solve this problem. And I will now that you have given me a solution, even though it is not the one I am searching for...

But if things go awry, I will be back. And I have a strong gut feeling that my bad feeling will make me come back instead of leaving. This bad feeling is so strong. Its coming. Its coming.

But now, I have yet another sticky problem on hand. I will just wait and see what happens. I want to leave my options open should anything still go awry. In the meantime, I will just shut my eyes, mind, ears and heart to whatever I think I shouldn't hear or shouldn't know.

and because of this, I know I won't be coming online for a long long long time. Maybe I will come online. But not on msn or anything along those lines. Or maybe I may be online, but u may be blocked. Or maybe I may be online but I am appearing offline. I dont know. I really dont know. Let's just see how this goes...

as always, this world is a magical world which changes itself for you. As long as you believe that such a world exists, it will. As long as you believe that such a world exists FOR YOU, it will change itself to make the world a better place for you and your loved ones. I assure you, it will. I believe in it and I know that the world will change itself for me. I just know it...
Note: I tried as hard as I could to re-emulate the scene that happened to me yesterday night. But I just couldn't.. It just shows the severity of this bad feeling.

destroyed

2008-08-29T04:32:00.000+08:00

someone's life is gonna get destroyed.

By me.

I can assure u that. I am seriously not joking. this person better watch his back.

he's gonna get destroyed godfather style. his whole life will be in the ruins.

and best of all. he wouldn't know what hit him.

haha.

the bus stop dilemma

2008-08-28T18:18:00.003+08:00

i was thinking of this particular bus stop problem. then it dawned upon me that this just shows how much problems human beings have in the first place. and through this little problem of mine, the bus stop problem, i came to understand that many of the solutions we seek to solve our problems are actually somewhere within us. If we have the will to find it, we will. How fast we take to solve the problem depends on how much u want to solve the problem. Not the kind of i-say-i-want-to-solve-my-problem kinda attitude. But those kind of deep down in your heart and minds, you really want to do so, maybe for someone, maybe for something, maybe for yourself.

the bus stop problem.
Imagine waiting for a particular bus 89 at your bus stop at 11.15. then you know u need to reach wherever u need to be pronto! u waited. and waited. for maybe 15 mins. no bus still. argh! crap. I am running late. then suddenly, a bus 88 comes. but the problem is that this bus 88 does not directly drop you off at the place u want to be, but it however, drops you off at a place somewhere close to where you need to be. will u take it?

but imagine. if u had alr waited for 15 mins, the probability that your bus 89 will be here soon. so will you continue to wait for 89?

and now, imagine after waiting for 15 mins and refusing to take that bus 88, firmly believing that your bus 89 will be here soon, after another 15 mins, your bus 89 still have not arrived. and another bus 88 comes. Will you take it?

But, the probability of your bus 89 coming is now much higher than before at 11.30. (the time now is 11.45) so will you continue to wait for 89?

this just depends on your faith in how u want things to be. nobody can tell u when something is going to happen. You will not know it either. some people lose faith and take 88, only to find halfway through the journey that 89 is just behind. Your faith is therefore, the key aspect to solving any problems. how much u want it solved deep down inside of you. how much u want to keep the faith in the solution to the problem that is already inside of you.

for me, i prefer to keep the faith. what about you?

i sincerely prayed for something to happen. its not for me. i still believe that the world is a magical place, where if we wanted something to happen, not for the sake of ourselves but for others, the thing we want to happen will.

an advice from me to everyone: keep your eyes, mind and heart open. There may just be someone or something that is constantly doing tiny little gestures for you without expecting anything in return. When that happens, you know you are loved.

=)

son

2008-08-28T12:01:00.000+08:00

being both the son of the SUN and the son of the MOON at the same time, I can be pretty unpredictable at times.

gentle note of reminder to those thinking of hurting me with whatever you got:
When the moon comes out to 'play', the sun goes in to rest.

be warned.

The REAL Olympic Medal Count

2008-08-20T01:37:00.002+08:00

And finally, someone spoke up. I got fed up at the gymnastic results. Being that China kept winning all of em when I CLEARLY saw some other contestants better...

The REAL Olympic medal count
By Chris Chase
Look, I don't know much about gymnastics, but I do know that landing a vault on two feet is better than landing one on two knees. Olympic gymnastics judges evidently disagree with me, as they awarded China's Cheng Fei a bronze medal yesterday even after she fell on her vault landing. American Alicia Sacramone finished fourth despite, you know, not falling.
And today, 12-year old 16-year old Chinese gymnast He Kexin won gold over Nastia Liukin based on an obscure tiebreaking rule. The two received the same score from the judges, but He won a tiebreak because an Australian judge apparently was watching a different competition.
Every judging break seems to have gone China's way during these Olympics. I'm not suggesting a conspiracy, I just think that judges are humans who are influenced by big names, fans and other external factors. Oh, and they're also terrible. Judged events will always be viewed with skepticism by those who lose for this reason, particularly those who lose to a member of the home delegation. (Think Roy Jones Jr. at the 1988 Seoul Olympics.)
It is because of this skewed inconsistency that Fourth-Place Medal introduces The Real 2008 Medal Count. Our medal count will tally medals won in sports decided on the field of play, not by a judge in a teal blazer.
The judged Olympic events we will ignore for our tally are: boxing, diving, equestrian, gymnastics, judo, taekwondo, trampoline and wrestling. We debated whether to include boxing, wrestling and the martial arts in the list, as they can be decided by competitors. However, because the judging is prone to error and shenaningans, we will include it.
The Real 2008 Medal Count
China: 22 gold; 11 silver; 11 bronze
United States: 21 gold; 19 silver; 21 bronze
As you can see, in the events where medals are determined by competitors rather than judges, the gold medal gap between China and the U.S. is greatly narrowed, and the total medal count is an American runaway. Counting the judged events, China has a commanding lead in golds. Hmmm... Nope, nothing fishy about that!

eyes and rock

2008-08-20T01:34:00.001+08:00

EYES
its not fair to use the eyes of someone who wants to see the world in a nice light to compare to the eyes of someone who has eyes belonging to an inhumane person

the view that we see is entirely different

even if u manage to know whatever he thinks of you, will it make you happier or better off than when u didnt know anything?

u dont. its just not worth probing and worth letting go

and even so, the comparison is unfair.

u cannot use a man's heart to judge that of a beast

ROCK
theres a nice part of a rock

but its inside

the core

but it takes alot of strength to break it

to be able to see the NICE part of it

so ya lor

its hard

but it is there

apology

2008-07-28T18:31:00.002+08:00

it sucks to know that you have apologised to someone and that person just doesnt tell you whether you are forgiven. it sucks to feel that i feel sucky even when i thought that apologising would make me feel better. it sucks to not understand what the person is thinking about on whether you are forgiven or not. And. I feel sucky right now.

I suddenly got the urge to pick up my camera and start snapping the 'JJ' kinda shots. those that are funny, inspirational and surprising. and unsurprisingly, i got the inspiration to want to do this again because i saw a humongous, joke and funny thing. there was this notice at my grandmother's house which states that residents have to vote on whether they want the upgrading program for their flats. and then, there was this phrase written in blue pen, and it blew me away. it wrote, 'waste of time'. totally cool! i still remember the time i took the 'PAPKING' shot. it was supposed to be 'PARKING'. seems like the worker who painted em' forgot about the stroke to make 'P' an 'R'.

'friendship is like applause. It takes 2 hands to clap. if 1 hand is attempting to clap, it will only tire out. And there will not be any clapping sound.'

I MADE MY MOVE-------------> ITS YOURS NOW.

smile

2008-07-02T08:56:00.002+08:00

have been watching some videos lately. then i happened to see a video which seems so familiar to me. it's like watching myself at some point in time. and at other parts of the video, i seem to see parts which seem to have left me or left most people in the world a long time ago.

ejiah(she), seems to speak like i do, of which i cannot look at a person with full eye contact if i were to talk to a person. i would be able to maintain eye contact for some time, but after a while, i tend to 'refresh' my eyes and look somewhere else. it's kinda like a habit. not that i lack confidence, but its somewhat of a novelty action, where i feel by doing so, i can not only pay attention to what the person is talking about and what is happening in the surroundings. it just seems to similar.

watch the video to see the astonishing similarity.

and just as i was saying, the second part of which have left us since a long time ago. have you noticed how ejiah smiled in the video? i sure noticed. and i also noticed that it was without any hesitation and without any lack of sincerity. the smile was really a real smile. not those kind which many of us see everyday. how long have we since laughed so heartily without any thought?

PS: her action at the last part reminded me of an old IT club senior, ashwin. he always do that 'knock-knock' twice with his right hand on his left chest. and seriously, ejiah smile and laugh is so infectious. seeing someone smile like that also made me smile. out of the blue.

you prick!

2008-07-02T08:00:00.001+08:00

i totally recommend kristofer dahl. his guitar lessons on youtube is like WHOA! see below for examples.

the use of the bad mother finger.

you prick!

you stinky little youtuber!

echelon

2008-06-22T10:05:00.002+08:00

the whole society revolves around the structure of society being divided into several echelons, or in laymen terms, some may prefer to call it the class of society, or rather social status.

characteristically, they are divided into the low, middle and high. for the lower echelons of society, the people there may be complaining of the problems they face as a result of social stigmatisation. more often then not, they are constantly requesting for the abolishment of such a social structure. but seriously, as much as humantarians may want it to be abolished, it cannot. It is a social structure that exists because of our meritocratic society. There will always be things thrown at you, but it is your prerogative on whether you want to find the best option to save yourself, and perhaps even push yourself to get out of the lower echelons of society.

Ironically, the higher echelons of society are also calling for the social stigmatisation to end. Plainly for 2 reasons. The first, to show that they really care about the society after it has given so much wealth and status to the rich. The second? It's just to show how bored they are. Only the nothing-better-to-do segments will attempt to remove the social structure currently present, ultimately removing social stigmatisation. Not that i am making this up, but just think... The higher echelons of society are usually the more educated and literate part of society. If that's the case, how would they not know that abolishing such a social structure cannot be done and that social stigmatisation cannot be removed. My definition of the removal of social stigmatisation is when even the lower echelons of society are invited to join fanciful parties, and made to show that they belong. And that cannot be done.

Imagine a hobo showing up at a fanciful party with his ungraceful eating manners. The thought of hobos going to parties just to stock up good food so that they don't have to search through rubbish chutes for rotten and stale food will disgust anyone present at the party. But can they be blamed for such mannerisms? They simply cannot. For they are just ensuring that they can survive another day.

The problems of the lower echelons do not begin with the mere problem of monetary gap between them and the rich(higher echelons). And the sad fact, their problems will not be solved even after they manage to earn a decent living for themselves. Be it monetary or non-monetary aid, judging from current policies being formulated and carried out, they may be helpful to the lower echelons of society, but it is not enough. I'm sure the Government has heard enough of people complaining that the aid the lower echelons of society receive is not enough. But I'm here to state my point.

I'm in fact happy when i hear that the Government has put in place healthcare(Mr. Khaw Boon Wan) and several education laws since a long time ago to help bridge the gap of the poor and the rich. But being happy is not enough. I want to see policies that is enough to make me grin, smile and laugh for 3 days straight. And to summarise the use of formulating such policies, they are meant to give everyone a similar starting line of life. A starting line which gives us many opportunities to maneuver between the several echelons of society. This objective is something that I couldn't have asked for more. But, the current problem now, is that we are all not at the same starting line.

On paper, education and finance etc., the lower,middle and higher echelons are rather similar. The policy of compulsory 16 years of education, the giving out of monetary rebates and aids to help solve the financial woes of these people are some of the policies that will make me smile. But I will not laugh or smile for 3 days straight. For I realised an apparent problem. Let me address this issue in the point children, since my age is rather close to those of children and would be better to relate to them. For children, family is most important to them. Reason being, they are new to this world and do not have many friends whom they can relate to yet. Or rather, i might think that this applies to adults also, where in this harsh world, there are not many people whom you can trust. Therefore, family is in fact a place where they fall back on. And on the basis of family, the children of the lower echelons of society are on the losing end and on that front, they do not start at the same starting line of life as us.

Generally speaking, good relatives are very rare in the lower echelons of society. In fact, in the many segments of society, there are not many good parents. But for the middle and higher echelons of society, they are rich enough to hire personal nannies or tutors to sort of 'parent' their children. While children of the lower echelons of society have the same material starting line as us, they do not have the same moral starting line as us. They do not belong to a conducive environment for their learning. They often have parents which are disruptive in their learning, and will often distaste their children's thirst for learning. (I choose to believe that all children have a insatiable thirst for learning) No matter how insatiable their thirst is, it will eventually disintegrate as their family becomes too disruptive for their learning. These children from a young age have to learn to adapt to their disruptive parents, who might love them, but do not know how to love them.

What I am suggesting is more family bonding activities to be held for the lower echelons of society. While some may say that the number of such activities are already enough, but i beg to differ. Many of such activities have been held in several HDB or private housing estate. But the participation rate from the lower echelons of society is meagre. And in such activites, perhaps more focus and emphasis is to teach parents how to love their child, and ultimately creating a conducive environment for the child. The problems that such activities face is that the poor families have to fight nail and tooth to survive by the day, and they often do not have time for such activities. And in their words, they do not have time to delve in such useless activities. I believe that families are the building blocks of society, thus, the Government should seek to undertake the role to bring more of such families to participate such teach-you-how-to-love-your-child activities. Let them see the benefits on such activities, that such activities will only make their family a more bonded one that can see off all problems, and to allow their children a fairer starting line position in the race of life.

Disclaimer:
I wanted to type this down because I suddenly have the nerving thought of me falling into the lower echelons of society. This is a harsh world. And the very next day, I might fall into the lower echelons of society without me knowing.

For those who have seen this blog post, please attempt to replicate this and ensure that these thoughts hit the right people. For people other than Singaporeans reading this, please attempt to convey this to your respective Governments. For Singaporeans, please replicate this and attempt to bring it to the attention of the Singapore Government. And i'm very sure that being the citizen oriented Government they are, I'm sure they will do something about this.

Russia

2008-06-22T06:00:00.002+08:00

Russia crushed Holland 3-1. The best result of the tournament so far.

and to my lovely Andrei Arsharvin, that was a lovely performance that totally crushed Holland.

Veggie

2008-06-19T08:26:00.001+08:00

this is veggie. and only after so long did i put its photos up.

enjoy.

and i know you will.

2008-06-17T00:49:00.000+08:00

Done.
Dusted.
Back To Work.

trump

2008-06-17T00:44:00.002+08:00

I'm not going to limit what I can do, but limit what I cannot do.

I'm not going to limit what I can achieve, but limit what I cannot achieve.

I'm not going to limit what I can think, but limit what I cannot think.

I'm going to TRUMP them all.

And things will soon go my way. I can see great things ahead of me. Only if i believe.

2008-06-08T09:19:00.003+08:00

now to think of it, the previous post was simply hilarious.

and interested applicants, please respond to that advertisement at http://iissomeoneelse.blogspot.com/2008/06/advertisement.html

please respond, cos' the last time i spoke to that man, he seemed kinda desparate.

2008-06-08T09:04:00.002+08:00

There is a man in need of a person of the opposite sex. For a person of the same sex who attempts to respond to this advertisement will just make him freak out. In short, since this person who launched this advertisement is a man, obviously he is in need of a woman and is frantically, if I may say, looking for the woman of his dreams.

Interested applicants please take note that the salary of this job will not be given in monetary terms, but in terms of the amount of love this man is willing to give. Interested applicants should also possess the following:
1) Gorgeous,need not be drop dead gorgeous,for this man is not marrying a corpse bride.
2) Has a more gorgeous character than her looks.
3) Independent,there are times when this man needs time off.
4) Able to provide inspiration and moments of magic to this songwriter man.
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and no, we didnt get paid, we got lots of love instead.

NEL/opportunity

2008-06-08T08:52:00.003+08:00

i cant believe how life seems to be playing tricks on us. seriously. and this incident occurred at about 3.10 on board the NEL.

and i was walking down the sengkang platform of the NEL, trying to look out for people i might know, or people who might know me. cos i already had several incidents in which i met people or people met me at that very train station. but nobody i knew was there. so i guess it was okay. then i stopped at the usual spot with my sister to wait for the train. then there was this lady who stood behind me all of a suddent. and well, being in the usual heck care attitude, i didnt bother. until the train arrived and i went in, then i realised, 'gosh! that's 1 heck of a gorgeous lady that was standing in front of me.'

and well, she sat in the seat opposite to mine. and she kinda looks familiar. or maybe its just me, where i always seem to feel that pretty ladies looks familiar to me.

then i went out of the train at the kovan station, and something of the most unbelievable took shape. the LCD boards that was used to display the time till the next train's arrival did not have the no of minutes to the next train, but a quote. and in that quote, in which kinda forgotten due to its crazy effect on me, was meant to say something like,'you cannot rely on others so take your own opportunity, its you who determine whether you took on your own opportunity.'

and man, that to me was kinda crazy. and now to enjoy the tub of gelato which was spammed by the lady at Venezia. Of whom my mum thought she gave so much to me was because she was taken by my handsome looks. and that seriously sounded kinda wrong.

old parliament house also got corner

2008-05-31T09:44:00.002+08:00

i found our something interesting yesterday, that the old parliament house also got corner. a particular group of people, of a certain pedigree were sitting around parliament house doing something which they are deemed to do best. not that they are kinda good at it, but they seem to be perfected in the skills of holding it and pretending to play it. maybe not pretending. maybe just holding it.

and surprisingly, the parliament house got such spacious steps that it made me wonder why these people choose to busker by the corner of those steps. hmmm. didnt know parliament house got corner.

as the saying goes, 'relak one corner and play guitar.'

and weird things happened, ryan, safi and I kena by some crazy indian guy on the bus. he started to talk to ryan and ryan didnt know he was talking to him. quotable quotes from that guy include,
1) too much baggage is bad baggage
2) you deaf?
3) You dont understand me? I speak British English and studied in American schools.
4) what did you do yesterday? I'm not talking about today or tomorrow, yesterday...
5) What did you learn to forget?

i still dont quite understand why a person can speak British English when he or she attends American schools.

dream

2008-05-30T11:55:00.001+08:00

i freaking woke up like 3 times 2 nights ago. at 2am, 3am and 6am.

and each time i laid my head down to rest, a word 'min', chinese word, kept appearing in me dreams. its not the simplified chinese. its old chinese. the one with the 'men' by the side and 'wen' in the center.

hmmm. some dreams and chinese expert can help me???

pre u seminar

2008-05-30T11:46:00.003+08:00

as yane put it, pre u scam.

simple. easy. and nice to call. pre u scam.

finished whatever nonsensical emcee duties i had. 2 days ago. eh no. 3 days ago. server lag. nothing much happened, except for a few nonsensical things.
1) NYJC went out of tune singing the song. totally hilarious
2) a ever so violent RJC guy stated his comment on someone's presentation when it was supposed to be a question. and obviously, the guy got shot down by me, with the approval of everyone else in the lt.
3) the MJC guy who wanted to ask question didnt even managed to ask a single question. too bad, no favours done to FD* people who ask FD* questions.
4) overall a job well done by myself.
5) bought foot-long sub and shared with shane.
6) was gaying around and stating about how i felt that OWEN HARGREAVES is super hot.
7) number of people who wanted to ask questions were so dang many that i was almost fainting just thinking about the numbers.
8) there were still about 10 people waiting to ask questions when i only can allow 1 minute worth of questions to be asked.
9) logically, the superb me dismissed the whole crowd to just 1 random soul asking A question

and somehow. i dont feel i miss NTU. even when i keep telling myself its the last time i will be in this lt. this super super super big lt. i dont even seem to miss the surroundings. and that's great. at least i dont feel like i want to keep going back to NTU.

judging from my tone. it seems to be a job well done. something that no one can better, and no one is even close...

and seriously. owen hargreaves is really dang hot. not that i am gay or something.

harmonica

2008-05-26T17:19:00.002+08:00

went to chang yang's harmonica concert. saw many olde friends. including long time never see friend, wayne. sad to say, he pangseh us for a girl. basket. many random things happened. many many many.

Reasons for a random night:
1) the emcees said 5 girls will perform on the harmonica, but ben, swee tong, junqi, fazall and i just screamed for chang yang. (note: chang yang is a guy...)
2) We were shouting 'i love you chang yang'. and that seriously didnt sound right
3) the song bengawan solo was played, and i exclaimed loudly, 'Hungry siah!'
4) after intermission, the vj councillor girl pointed in the direction of the performance theatre and signalled me and junqi to go in. and shortly after, this conversation occured:
girl: please make your way into the theatre
me: ok. But what if i go in and dont sit, you never told me to be seated.
girl: (nothing was said, but there was this weird look on her face)
me: (i just laughed and walked in)
5) played with spongebob cards
6)saw matt ho at every single corner of the sch
7) kena recognised at the bus stop by some girl, who APPARENTLY knew me, my name, and some other details about me. i was like, 'oh noz, who are you?'. until i realised that that was my pri sch friend, deborah. hmmm. wth. some friend i am.

i think still got many more. hmmm.

argh. tmrw is my day. my day to kena be the emcee.

man oh man. look at how poor my england is at the previous sentence.

pedra branca

2008-05-26T17:13:00.000+08:00

Singapore got A rock. Malaysia got stones.

power siah. i cant wait to sunbathe on that rock...

hols

2008-05-22T17:22:00.002+08:00

this hols is only good for 7 things:
1) Study for mid years
2) Meet up with old friends
3) Get to know new friends
4) Chasing girls
5) Trying to salvage lost friendships in the course of the past 6 months or more
6) Play music instruments(guitar, piano)
7) Write songs

everything applies to me except option 5. and if anyone feels that they seem to suffer from a lost or broken friendship with me since some time ago, please feel free to approach me.

i just got so inspired that i wrote a song. but the sad thing was that i didnt have a manuscript with me to write it down. so it got lost. and never penned down.

i got a new baby. its transparent green. dont know what to call it yet... greenie? or veggie as chang yang proposed.

hmmm. veggie. not a bad name for a guitar.

leg

2008-05-22T16:53:00.001+08:00

me right knee is injured. can somebody please come and care and comfort me?

this accident happened when i fell down at the mrt station steps yesterday.

elearning

2008-05-22T15:54:00.002+08:00

it seems like e learning is cancelled. i just got an sms. and i think it might be because of me. haha. read excerpt below to find out more.

Topic: Re: I'll rather go to School
From: MR Loh Jun Jie
Date: 22/05/2008 11:35:46 AM
elearning is not a big fat joke. its so good that there isnt enough bandwidth for anyone to download anything properly. its so good that we can eat our breakfast while we dl the modules and find out after finishing our breakfast that the module is not downloaded. its so good that we go for second round of breakfast and come back to find out that our download progress has been halted and jammed. its so good that we get to practise our computer skills and click the link again to download the module again.its so good that i feel paying 20 bucks is too value for money with the little bandwidth we get.its really so good that i didnt even manage to download any module for chem at all.

posted this in the elearning portal. my my my. junjie. how daring you have become.

-cher-

2008-05-22T11:01:00.002+08:00

that day sucks. specifically, that day refers to yesterday. didnt even want to come to sch early that day. cos the first period, as always on wednesdays, are no periods at all. and then, the second period was econs, of which ng swee chu wasnt in sch, so officially have lesson, unofficially no lesson. the third lesson, was a lame, stupid, useless and boring econs lecture, of which we finished the syllabus and as of my experience in the lecture hall the last time, all we did in econs lecture was to just: 1. go in
2. sit down
3. shift the table up
4. take out notes
5. read
6. and after reading, either stare at the ceiling or keep making wth/wtf signs

and within myself, unanimously, i opted not to go for that nonsensical lecture. but the only econs tutor in mj at that time, karen ng, i heard, was calling for everyone to come back to the lt. seems like almost all of the lt had ponned the lecture, just like me... and unshockingly, i got a few calls from my classmates. all of which to get me to come back to the lt. after a long time of pondering, i decided to head back to the lt. and of course. awaits a 'lecture' from the econs tutor. and seriously, while i felt that some parts of whatever she said was right, some parts were not right. the only parts right in what she said is perhaps the part where she mentioned about being disrespectful to the lecturers when u dont attend their lectures. that's quite true. but then again, wouldnt it be more disrespectful to the lecturers to know that their students are whiling, wasting, and abandoning their time away in the desolate lt, instead of spending that 50 mins on more productive activities like studying somewhere else for econs or maybe other subjects. in whatever retrospect, i feel that the most disrespectful thing that can happen to a lecturer is when the student you have flunks his or her exams. and that my friends, is the worst crap on earth. not, not attending unproductive lectures.

the rest of the periods were seriously not productive, where peter goh spent 1 whole dang period trying to explain 1 sub part of a qn. i seriously dont understand that bugger. he tries to explain but yet makes us more confused. and then, for 2 whole periods, which is equivalent to 1hr and 40mins, he only managed to get 1 explanation right. the rest of the explanations were either crap or nonsense. and then we were down to jalan besar.

yane and i decided to jump the gate. then hian peng joined us. we managed to jump over the gates and i think hian peng went home while yane and i went to jalan besar on our own. met up with pflug, thompson and 2 of their friends to eat lunch. and i must say that my presence at jalan besar was only for 2 reasons. 1 is to collect guitar. a new guitar. and the second, is to watch the match. and indeed, the match was rather thrilling. the match ended 3-1. with mj winning. stood up throughout the whole match and suddenly saw cherish walk past. then i told philip:
me: i think cherish is really beautiful
philip: she's an emcee for pre u seminar
me: u think i dont know meh? i still think she's really beautiful
philip: yeah, i think so too

then after that we were cracking stupid jokes like going up to an mj person and shaking the person's hands and saying: Congratulations, your sch won.
philip suggested going to the vj side and suddenly just exclaiming: hey, my sch won man! i wonder which sch lost to us?

freaking basket. but in the end we didnt even dare to do em'. it was too risky and we didnt want to risk getting injured on that day. then when the match ended, and when everyone was leaving, suddenly i saw 'morning'. she turned back and looked in me direction. and at that time, i was hugging my guitar like i was hugging someone. i was short of kissing it and making it known to everyone that i am truly in love with my guitar. i think she looked stunned at that time. but then she walked away and it only seems that i can only see her after the hols. dang. dang. dang.

collected guitar, watched match, talked to puey and bong. went for dinner with chang yang, ben, fazall, and chang yang's friend, xiao yi. weird name for a guy. either way, i dont think its spelt that way, but at least i think that how its pronounced. swensens. lame and stupid jokes. and leecy invited me to his harmonica concert this sat. hmmm. after that, fazall kept talking with his friends all the way. while ben, chang yang, chang yang's friend and meself, kept ourselves busy chatting. fazall was talking to someone who looked rather familiar to me all the way from the Famous Amos shop to the mrt station. hmmm. maybe its just that she's one of mj ppl that's y i found her familiar. hmmm. hmmm. hmmm. do i know that person?

'morning' will come to me one day.

and i cannnot believe my ears. itunes just played a song for me in random. guess what's the name... its 'i love you dawn' by Crowded House.

and no. it doesnt represent me at all :)

NTU (rehearsal)

2008-05-18T08:26:00.006+08:00

super ridiculous day, where i had to wake up at 5am so that i can reach sch at 5.45am. and since ben tan stayed around me area, decided to bring him along since my father is bringing me there so early in the morning. and upong reaching the sch, saw many people also walking into the sch compound. walked in with ben tan, then reached the sch foyer. after reaching the sch foyer for some time, suddenly, some girl exclaimed.

girl (unknown): whoa. i stay in Punggol and the cab fare costs me 9 bucks!
me: (i was shocked for a moment until i thought of the midnight surcharge taxis have)
me: (then i said) u should have asked around who stays around your area, then can bring u here. If i had known, i would have offered for you to come along with us. we stay the same are. (note: us - ben and me)

yeah. exactly. the teachers should have asked and checked around who stays where, compile a list and maybe see if people living in the same area have got people to bring them to sch or even share a cab, and ultimately share the cost.

then thereafter, boarded a damn retro bus. look like those 60s SBS bus. and on the way there, the whole bus was asleep, except for me, ben tan, revvo, leon, and chong lip. the rest were soundly asleep. it didnt take long before we reached NTU. was dropped off at the NTU audi outside. had to help ms koh take some panel discussion rehearsal stuff with chong lip and went into the audi. well, not really into the audi. just outside, but in the building. put down the stuff on the floor and started to try to stone when i heard that MY REHEARSAL ONLY STARTS A 11am! and the time at that point of time was about 7am. that's 4 fours of nonsense. time wasting and things like that. leon suggested playing chess. international chess. so we sat down and opened up his new pack of chess set, put the chess set on the boxes and started playing. and due to the fact that people all around us were also freaking bored, they started to swamp around us to watch us, since there's nothing better to do. and being the people playing chess with people around us watching, it kinda made me feel a little guilty when i am playing chess to relieve time while they are just stoning beside us. and seriously, some of the girls watching the game were pretty. but that's besides the point. the point is that i trashed leon. with the help of revvo to checkmate him. i destroyed most of his pieces but couldnt checkmate him.

and then i saw cherish behind me copying math notes. hmmm. so early in the morning and copying maths notes. that was really power. and seriously, for a moment, she looked beautiful copying the notes. (mine 'for a moment' thing is BACK!)

after that, the game with leon had to be halted cos we needed to move to our venues. and when the pp people reached the venue, it was very veryvery old and shabby. but lucky its not mine LT. but having said that, when i went to my LT, i had a huge shock. cos my LT is about 1 and a half times of LT 4. and dang, that is BIG.

and after that, it was a torturous 10 presentations to rush through. and super boring PW style nonsense. with occasional little chats with the presenters, like that girl from nyjc, who keeps trying to ask me if their presentation was good. and of which i didnt say good or not, maintaining a politically correct stance. and that girl from sajc looks like someone i know, and everytime i see her, i keep thinking of my friend. just like me keep thinking of aloysius everytime i see elizabeth. no choice. who ask them to look so alike.

and the rest of boring...

or ya, i still need to look for that girl who stays around me area. actually, she wanted to give me her hp no alr, but cos i needed to do my emcee work, then i said later then i get from her, but i didnt know she go home so early. argh. need to find her in sch then.

Squier for sale

2008-05-16T17:03:00.001+08:00

cheez

2008-05-09T19:12:00.002+08:00

i just realised how beautiful cheryl is. can still remember on thurs in the movie room, when we watching blood diamond. then i suddenly just turned back, and saw a sleeping cheryl, with hair untied and listening to her ipod touch. and seriously, for a moment, i thought that she was really beautiful.

just got my strat back from Beez. it now sounds better than before, cos it has a better action and better playability. will be looking forward to whacking it out.

'and when you're dreaming with a broken heart, the waking up is the hardest part.'

Essay

2008-05-01T10:51:00.004+08:00

Before Zenith even publish this essay... i will post it up...
here...

Title of Essay: Does Singapore need more rebels in order to thrive in the twenty-first century?

Rebel; a word distinctively characterised by Che Guevara, the world’s most famous rebel. The changing global landscape has inevitably brought about changes in the definition of rebels in the twenty-first century. The twenty-first century marks a period somewhat similar to the Renaissance, where creativity is appreciated, and manipulated to generate new ideas and concepts in the realm of technology and science. In short, it is a marriage between the Renaissance and the Industrial Ages. As a result of this matrimony, the definition of rebel has evolved to someone with the creative aptitude to challenge current trends and ideas, and creatively suggest new ideas and trends for the world to adopt. The twenty-first century rebel is also someone with the technological and scientific knowledge, not forgetting the confidence in not being afraid to challenge authority-with the latter explicitly shown by Che Guevara. Just like other countries throughout the globe, Singapore needs more rebels than it currently has, which is close to negligible, to thrive in the competitive twenty-first century.

Peace has an inverse relationship with rebellion. With a large number of rebels, peace will be almost impossible to achieve. However, in the twenty-first century, good old-fashioned peace is still of utmost importance as an objective for governments, including Singapore. Singapore is a country highly dependent on its people and foreign firms to bring in the dough necessary for the survival of Singapore. Without peace and stability, people will start to move away from Singapore, foreign and local firms will begin to pull out of this small equatorial nation. Should this happen, the result would be devastating. Rebels challenge conventional ideas, which in turn sacrifice the peace and stability in a country, and may have detrimental effects as mentioned. However, just as much as peace and stability are key to Singapore’s growth, Singapore has to keep up with the world’s new-age creative thinking, as supplied by twenty-first century rebels like Sir Richard Branson, to maintain its growth in years to come. And thus, while rebels disrupt the peace and stability Singapore has, they are key and necessary to Singapore’s growth.

Rebels bring about new economic opportunities as they propose radical ideas, opposing the current ones. Entrepreneurship itself requires an element of rebellion, where these entrepreneurs are not afraid to venture into new grounds. This challenges the conventional concept that venturing into new grounds is not feasible and will only backfire upon them. Especially, in an Asian country like Singapore, where ethical moral values and cultures are adopted, rebelling is considered taboo, and even unheard of in certain Asian countries. While other countries have appreciated the value rebels have and benefited from the economic opportunities they bring, Singapore needs to start appreciating the work of rebels so as to reap its benefits. Sir Richard Branson, a self proclaimed rebel billionaire, is the epitome of how rebels bring about news opportunities. He was unafraid to take his business to space, when he announced the concept of space travel during the launch of his new space travel company. While Singapore has Sim Wong Hoo, the founder of Creative Technology, who listed Creative on the NASDAQ and also unafraid to venture into the American market, she does not have enough of such twenty-first century rebels, who bring about new economic opportunities. And therefore, for Singapore to thrive in such a competitive environment, she needs her own brand of rebels to lead the pack, promoting economic growth.

Singapore is largely known on the world map as a ‘one-party-state’, with the People’s Action Party (PAP) being the dominant driving force of the government. The only ‘known rebels’ in the Singapore Government was the opposition parties, who currently hold 2 seats in the Parliament, Low This Khiang and Chiam See Tong, as well as Sylvia Lim as a Nominated Member of Parliament (NMP). However, this is not enough. Singapore needs to understand that while she hones new rebels in other areas to aid in her growth, she also needs rebel politicians, who are unafraid to take up or propose new measures. These rebel politicians also need to be proactive in formulating policies that encourage more from the minority rebels in Singapore, and also be able to promote the need for rebels in Singapore to Singaporeans effectively. In the political scene, she needs two kinds of rebels, the first being one who can propose new measures and the second being one who is daring enough to adopt these new measures. While PAP can argue that its new generation of politicians are already such ‘rebels’, Singaporeans should understand that they are not the kind of rebels in PAP that we desire – the rebels we desire are politicians who can offer an alternative voice to the powerful lawmakers in PAP. These rebels also need to be able to engage in a war of words to critically analyse new measures and policies brought up and attempt to improve them for the better of Singaporeans. The current political rebels in Singapore still lack the appropriate oral skills to effectively challenge PAP, who are far too powerful in their dominance of governance. Should Singapore be able to hone high calibre political rebels, she would then be able to better prepare herself for challenges brought about in the twenty-first century.

As defined in the first paragraph, the twenty-first century is a marriage between the Renaissance and the Industrial Ages, where artistic and the creative use of technology and science are favoured. Singapore has already taken her first steps in preparing herself for the twenty-first century by inviting the animation firm of George Lucas, Lucasarts, to set up an animation firm in Singapore. Animation is a mixture of art and technology, with the use of technology and science to animate out artistic and creative characters and scenes. The animation film, The Zodiac, which was created and animated by Singaporeans, shows us a glimpse of what our own animators can do. However, Singapore must understand that we need more of such artistic rebels, in order to bring industries, like the 3D animation industry to a whole new level, comparable or even better than films made by foreign firms like Ratatouille by Pixar. The success of a Singaporean rebel, Dr George Quek, who has challenged conventional breads to come up with artistic and fanciful bread flavours and designs as sold in his chain of bread stores, Breadtalk, an example of how Singapore has benefited from her rebels. Therefore, Singapore needs more rebels, people who can challenge conventions, to enable her to thrive in the twenty-first century.

While it is important to have rebels throughout every industry and sector in a country, we still have to take into account the peace and stability that rebels take away. In a small country like Singapore, susceptible and vulnerable to small events occurring within the geographical boundary of itself, she has to strike a balance between rebels and peace. Rebels and peace are both important reagents in the cauldron of Singapore’s growth, each with its advantages and disadvantages. The twenty-first century calls for more competition between countries, as well as the need for rebelling. Thus, it is of utmost importance that Singapore should strive to hit common ground between the need for rebels and the need for peace, as she strives to promote the birth of more rebels in her country, in order to survive the daunting requirements of the twenty-first century.

and this: is 1229 words.

Hot from the oven.

bloke

2008-04-23T22:30:00.001+08:00

Man: God, why do you make women so beautiful?
God: So that you will love her.
Man: Then why do you make her so dumb?
God: So that she will love you.

Syakirah

2008-04-11T22:28:00.002+08:00

took the bus to VS to collect foolscap paper from yiqi. then on the bus 196, i was busy reading the newspapers about my favourite topic. soccer and mafia. seems like a former mobster is in Singapore to collect bad debt. cool. something i like. and that guy seems uber cool. with sunglasses black suits and all. with a whole entourage. then suddenly, someone sat next to me and tapped on my bag, which was resting on my lap...

i looked up, its syakirah.

syakirah: hey, hi!
me: (looks up and just says 'uhh')
syakirah: hey!!! i said hi!
me: arh? urh... Hi!

then we spoke about PW, sch and stuff. and oh yes. i still remember your name syakirah.(in response to her qn asking whether i know her name.) i have an exceptional memory.

we spoke for about 4-5 bus stops length. but i must say that i was definitely shocked to see syakirah. maybe that explains my stoneness. and i said the dreaded goodbye. the kind that it would seem like we will definitely meet again. but hey, its kinda unpredicted. we may not meet again in the future or in years to come.

just like the last time i spoke to someone on a personal basis on the bus. i cannot remember who it was. but i definitely know its someone important to me. and to that person, i said a goodbye that was rather similar to this, making it seem like we WILL definitely meet again. if u are the person, tell me. i just cannot remember who this person is. like some dark figure in my mind. cloudy and blurred.

and oh yes. PW=A. Hong han confirmed it for me.

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2008-04-10T22:02:00.001+08:00

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holiday

2008-04-10T21:26:00.002+08:00

tmrw no sch.

and guess what. i got my GP essay back and it says that I have to spend my holiday tmrw typing my essay out and send it to the teacher for it to be put in Zenith, the sch magazine. but hey, i think they should change the instructions to: 'your student essay has been selected because he's the only one in meridian that did this question. congratulations to him for his stupid and worthless bravery and his good grades. thanks.'

my tmrw is burned.

emcee

2008-04-09T21:54:00.002+08:00

i hate to believe that jezer is getting to be the emcee for opening ceremony for pre-university seminar. all i can say that the teachers definitely made a wrong choice. i hate to see someone who doesnt have the stage presence nor the perfect voice to voice for the opening ceremony for pre-university seminar. during the combined practices, i never once thought that jezer had a voice that captivated, motivated, or one that can even make the sleepiest guy on Earth wake up and listen to him. so i can say that i am indeed very very very disappointed at the result.

i am left wondering why a person like myself or like chong lip, are left ruing our chances at lousier assignments. not that our assignments are bad, but i do feel disappointed. chong lip, a person i always felt most apt to be the person u would want to use when u want to express your feelings. he can do it with real omph! a real natural i would say. and for myself, not that i'm bragging, but i have often heard people tell me that they listen to me for a reason even they dont know. they say its my voice. and my stage presence. it has that listen to me feel. and they somehow will listen to me when i speak. i appeal to them in my way. the jun jie factor. when the external trainers came down, my trainers felt that i was super good to listen to, there was just something extra from me that makes me better to listen to than the rest. when my final trainer came down, his name is yong wei... hope i spelled that right. even he mentioned that there was definitely something in me that made people want to listen to me. the rest of the people who attended the same group as me also felt the same way. so i just cannot understand why everyone can see it but not the teachers...

maybe there's a reason why i lost out. if there is, i dont mind finding out and learning from my mistakes, or rather learn about why that guy won me. but if there is no dang good reason and he turns out to be a flop and me a success, all i can say to the teachers is that u asked for it. not me. i will do my part well. in fact very well. and u might just regret not choosing me for opening ceremony in the first place...

and congrats to julian and huiqi. i think u 2 deserve the closing ceremony emcee post.

unknown

2008-04-09T21:47:00.002+08:00

unknown songs by unknown people. need more introduction?

The Sheer - Understand

Tahiti 80 - Big Day

Malibu Stacy - Los Angeles

Morning Runner - Gone Up In Flames

K-Hop influence

2008-04-09T21:41:00.001+08:00

this is the first time my post title exceeds 1 word. influenced by k-pop hip hop. K-hop.

EPIK high - Fly

EPIK high - Love Love Love

so many things happening

2008-04-05T08:29:00.003+08:00

so many things have been happening. didnt have much time to come here to say anything about em'. like the duathlon on last sat... where i met so many friends from before. and cycled like a crazy guy. overtaking countless number of people along the way. and met april but i didnt go up and say 'hi'.

sch going on throughout the week. just got another emcee assignment 2 days ago. got back my really lousy grades for the march block test. its so long alr. until i forgot everything that happened...

and i realised that if i were to bother about people's thinking about myself all the time, i might as well just forget about having a better life. becos even if u are not the one to say something, they will think that u are the one, so why argue with the person that u didnt say that? just admit to saying it and maybe laugh it off! as long as u know that u didnt do anything wrong, its alright. we live our lives not for people to judge. we live our lives to enjoy every moment of whatever we are doing, be it happy or faux pas moments. even if its sad moments, its still a part of life, and it just shows how complex and sophisticated our human heart is. so why bother what people say??? if u know that u are right DEEP DOWN INSIDE OF YOU, just dont bother.

and i guess i still have to thank mr wong liang seng for another excerpt of life's lessons. he taught me something about people in a rather DISTURBING way. i was the one being victimised during that incident. he always seemed nonchalant when people laugh at how fat he is. he told me that such people always suffer from inferiority complex, where they know deep down inside of them that they are lousier or worse then you. so they resort to using measures which include laughing and gossipping about you to make u seem inferior to them in front of everyone. so i learnt to appear nonchalant to negate all such 'attacks' on myself. thanks mr wong!

i used to have a senior, NCC one. forgot what's his name. he very very very much my senior. there was once he took a group of us out for midnight run at ECP. we ran till the macdonalds there and he told us another very uber good thing. he told us that no matter how bad a leader is, or how bad he treats his peers and juniors, learn to respect him not for his bad ways. but rather, learn to respect him for the reason why he became a leader instead of you. learn from that and you will one day make it to the very top. quote:'Every leader is there for a reason'. and when i tried to apply to life, it just meant that nobody should be disliked or hated. nobody. should. be. hated. i cant hate ppl anyways. if u want reason u can look for me...

i watch the HK show yesterday. the ah wang show. at 7pm. he said a story about how he was very disappointed and sad when his principal of mainstream schools told him to quit sch halfway in sch term just because he is mentally disabled. he said that he was very disappointed and wondered why the principal didnt allow him to stay on till end of year or rather stopped him from entering the sch. he said he would feel better that way as compared to having to suddenly leave sch. how true.

life stories.

crush

2008-03-26T15:57:00.001+08:00

to my dearest friends:

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come on. everyone has dark secrets...

tops

2008-03-26T14:18:00.003+08:00

topping the class in GP... Again... is not a good feeling. somehow. but then again, it feels good to know that my GP is still going strong.

classmates will start to get jealous and even hate you. hate you for the smallest of actions. just a simple action of me going up to the teacher to get my doubts clarified is seen and deemed as proudness, of which i can only say that all i want to do is improve. but people dont see that way dont they? Only i would know that i am trying to humblize myself and learn more.

and GP is a nice subject. made me come up with many unexpected things. like the quote i am going to put here later.

feels weird topping the class with so many worries. i just hope it wont be a repeat of o levels, where me being the consistent good scorer have to put up with being only second to those who have perform consistently bad at the end of the 4 years at VS. its terrible i can tell you. terrible. when you are expected to get an A1 and u get A2. while that other person is expected to get a B3 or lower, but he gets an A1 at the end. I dont think its my complacency. i am never complacent. nor do i intend to be complacent.

english. marvel. barvel. parvel.

'The 21st Century is a marriage between the Renaissance and the Industrial Ages.'
GP essay March block Test 2008

wow.

and to my detractors, read my essay before you think that i dont have the right and privilege to flaunt my marks. u will see the difference between mine and yours...

google

2008-03-24T13:37:00.003+08:00

so fun. i just realised that in me putting ads in here is actually for me to see. just found a cool site from adsense.

Virtual Laboratory
Its sorta like a virtual lab. with test tubes and stuff. and many more things. go and see if its fun!

and i just did a dream test on tickle...

JJ, the recurrent theme of your dream life is Mastery

You're dreaming about maximizing opportunities and achieving well-deserved success. This means that in some area of your waking life, you are adequately prepared and things are working out just the way you want.

Dreams are the stories your unconscious narrates each night as you sleep. To find out which of your dreams revealed your Mastery dream theme, get your Dream Interpretation Report now!

and that's it. now on to swee lee.

fly

2008-03-22T12:49:00.003+08:00

the name of this post has got nothing to do with pant flys or whatsoever. and no. my pants fly is not open...

sadly.

songs that are stuck to me mind.

Fly to me - KEANE

Can't Stop Now - KEANE

Memories of Winter - The Daydream

Something in Me was Dying - KEANE

surprising, akash just called me to ask for ming jin number... maybe this was all that my dreams were about... 'forewarning me' that someone is gonna call me for ming jin... maybe...let's just wait and see.

and if anyone has the music score to that THE DAYDREAM song, pls ATTEMPT to send it to me at akraine@gmail.com.

TeeJay

2008-03-21T10:02:00.002+08:00

seems like i will be going to TJ on Tuesday(25 March) at about 5pm for a while...

chem

2008-03-20T00:43:00.002+08:00

i studied really hard for my chemistry. i can recite the reactions backwards and forwards. but in today's exam, i totally blanked out and dont know what in the world is chemistry anymore. i didnt even know what is CH3...

section a(MCQ) - i almost slept, cos i didnt know how to do anyways.
section b - i left more blanks than answers
section c - i didnt do 1 whole qn of about 20 marks. i helped the examiner put a 0 on the front of the cover page.

gg...

ANNA and the KING

2008-03-15T08:05:00.003+08:00

went to vs to play soccer on fri. i lost a little touch with my dribbling, didnt seem to be as fluid as before... but still managed to turn some people upside down inside out. especially that concert band or chinese orchestra random guy who suddenly came into the game and tried tackling me for the ball. i tricked him from left to right, then from right to left, then turn a few 360s, switch the ball between both legs, until that random guy gave up and left the pitch. didnt score spectacular goals, score normal but many goals...

then went to bk at parkway for lunch. and i saw rahul. he studying there with his 2 other friends. suddenly, out of nowhere, one of his friends happen to mention my name. so i momentarily turned back and rahul asked me if i was formally from TJ... the usual 'yeah' from me was said. then his friend suddenly asked me if i knew her. okays, i admit that i dont know who the hell was that at that point in time. then the most random thing happened, which kinda made me feel awkward and weird...

anna: what's the surname?(referring to mine...)
rahul: i think its lim. (looks at me and asks) what's your surname?
me: loh
anna: oh, i think you are my relative...
me:(shocked, shell-shocked, and seriously stunned) cannot be...
anna: i heard from grandaunt say...
me: i dont think so.

and it was really weird la. at first she knew me, then she say she think she my relative. complicated. then after i went off to buy my food, i sat down and ate. somehow i managed to rmb a little about where i met her before. and after finishing eating the food, i walked over to their table and said that i actually knew her before. so she was like kinda smiling or some sort... hehe. sorry that i couldnt rmb who you were on first sight. and so, a conversation occured and nothing of much reading value was said, so thou shalt not post anything here about thalt dialogue...

and so, the day ends with me feeling like i am knowing a new friend. a wierd way. and if her name is ANNA, and i was the other protagonist in this weird encounter, perhaps, i am the KING. hehe.

ANNA and the KING. at burger king...

hey! can somebody pass me my crown or something? i need to go for my official royal duties...

weird... again...

2008-03-12T22:46:00.002+08:00

weird dream again. and dream about the same person somemore. u want to know who? refer to previous post and click the ads when u do so... haha!

so the thing about that dream, i dreamt that i saw her studying in an LT. weird studying dreams, maybe its like a reminder to me that i should study harder. then things started happening in the dreams in which i cannot control. and of course, i cannot control who appears...

i was like a little boy looking for treasures. and i entered the LT and found mingjin. my goodness. quite cheesy crappy and stupid.

like i said in my previous post, mingjin is no doubt pretty and has a great personality. and like i said before, i dont feel anything towards her. and i dont think i will in time to come...

ebenex

2008-03-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

i thought i name this post with the place i visited today. cos something really funny happened today...

went to ebenex to test the bb preamp and the TS 808 pedal, coupled with the proco you dirty rat. went there with bong and kf. then finish testing alr got this guy. weird weird looking. then norman, the shop guy, asked the weird guy to get for him a psp game, need for speed pro street. and that guy say that dont have, he know the latest nfs game is carbon, which is like freaking old. then i just said that actually got pro street, in which really have la... then we started talking. talk from psp to ps3 to xbox 360 to guitar hero to rock band. and then he say that he added keyboard backing tracks to his band jamming sessions by connecting his psp to the system. and he knows everything about the psp like its special configuration of how many hertz it fires onto the screen in a sec! i was like wth~ didnt know psp so cool one. and somehow to levan wee, the ex-victorian and ex-ronin guy. seems like the weird guy knows levan wee. then that guy show the three of us his modded strat, where he added in a guitar hero sticker, making the strat look like a fake strat. super lame siah. then somehow, we managed to talk about tubescreamers, and how it sounds super crap on humbuckers, and then on his keeley modded ts9. i was like wth siah. keeley modded!!! how ex siah. after talking about tubescreamers, somehow we came to talk about rats. proco rats. not those on the streets. then i just said that i alr had a vintage rat, just looking to see the difference when i boost my rat with a TS808 compared to my TS7... and he was like stunned looking at me. a short excerpt below. super funny siah...

me: oh. i just testing to see how much difference is the 808 from the 9 when boosting my vintage rat...
weird guy: (stunned) vintage rat?!?!?!?!
me: yeah~
weird guy: u mean the big one?!?!?!(shows a hand gesture of big)
me: yeah~
weird: that's GOOD SHIT MAN!
me: i know...

super stupid. until the good shit part. wth. then somemore while i testing the pedals got this crazy imba guy. he started playing little wing. i was shellshocked. stunned. and determined to improve myself. so i became crazy just now and spent some time soloing with my rat. crazy siah. i think my neighbours will kill me if i go on doing this...

something weird happened to me yesterday. or rather in my dreams. somehow this person whom i am not really close to appear in my dreams. i also dunno why. and pls. its not an erotic dream like what eron or safi always have... its just a dream where there are 3 people. me on the left. she in the middle. and another guy on the right. oh ya. i forgot to say who the girl is. the girl that appeared in my dreams was mingjin. weird siah. and its just like a dream where we were talking. but i was talking mingjin more than she was talking to the other guy. whom i dont know who... and the thing is that i forgot what i said. or what the three of us spoke about. but either way, its a weird dream for me... cos i dont really know mingjin very well. and that i must say that i dont have crushes or feelings on her or whatever u call that... although i seriously do find her pretty and know that she has a great personality, i dont have that kinda feeling towards her. and i dont think i will have in the future. and i know that any guy that goes with her will be a very lucky and happy man... so in short, a kinda weird dream for me.

and quote of the day(by me):
'In short, the 21st century is a marriage between the Renaissance and the Industrial Ages.'

i still cannot believe i wrote that in my GP exam...

and that weird guy.

and that weird dream.

why its mingjin appearing in my dreams???

201

2008-02-29T21:06:00.000+08:00

the 201st post marks a great time. i actually managed to compose up almost 3 songs.

that's like kinda a big achievement.

and i forgot to pen it down.

200th

2008-02-26T19:00:00.002+08:00

this marks my 200th post. nothing much to say really.

been in kinda a daze for the past few days. partly attributed to me figuring some things out. and also partly attributed to me feeling faint and dizzy.

the singer, songwriter, producer will be back at work...

sadly, i dont really like the feeling of blogging on my 200th post.

kinda marks that i am rather old.

right!

2008-02-17T17:53:00.001+08:00

dont believe what ah huat says. true love dies.

trust me.

because i am right

and you're left.

to put it simply...

2008-02-15T23:53:00.001+08:00

i rather be love-less...

and ironically, just after i came up with the resolution on what i will do, i ate the precious moments fortune cookie my GP teacher gave on V day.

and guess what i got on the note written inside...
'Love Brings Understanding'

oh wow.

how ironic.

i don't trust myself with loving you.

2008-02-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

i don't trust myself with loving you.

i really dont.

just like that John Mayer song.

i came up with a resolution with myself. i realised that i cannot go around seeking for love like many do. my heart wanes too easily. too easily.

to prevent a world catastrophe, i decided not to seek for love. meaning: i do not even attempt to chase after the girls that i may fall for.

i don't trust myself with loving you. really don't.

unless a girl comes up to me and tells me that she really loves me or something like that, then maybe...

i rather the other party hurting me than me hurting the other party.

i found the answer to ben lim qn... i dont have a gf because i wane too easily.

its really better for me to follow my resolution.

single=1.

i like 1.

its a prime number.

little wonders

2008-02-15T23:30:00.005+08:00

Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder,
Don't you know, the hardest part is over, let it in,
Let your clarity define you in the end,
You will only just remember how it feels.

Our lives are made, in these small hours, these little wonders
These twisted turns of fate, time falls away,
But these small hours, these small hours, still remain.

Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you, let it shine,
Till you feel it all around you,
And I don't mind, if it's me you need to turn to, we'll get by,
It's the heart that really matters in the end.

Our lives are made, in these small hours, these little wonders
These twisted turns of fate, time falls away,
But these small hours, these small hours, still remain.
All of my regret, will wash away somehow,
But I cannot forget the way I feel right now.
In these small hours, these little wonders, these twisted turns of fate,
All these twisted turns of fate, these twisted turns of fate
Yeah, times falls away
But these small hours, these small hours, still remain.
They still remain, these little wonders, all these twisted turns of fate
time falls away, but these small hours, these little wonders
Still remain.

there's something in that song that's really familiar. or rather i think it applies to me.

Let it go, let it roll right off your shoulder,Don't you know, the hardest part is over, let it in.

definition of selective memory loss:
A form of amnesia, selective memory loss is a rare side effect of head injuries when the victim loses certain parts of his/her memory. Not much is known because this only results when certain areas of the head are traumatized. Common elements that may be forgotten: relationships, special talents (eg: juggling, whistling, instrumental talents, etc.), living area, abilities in certain areas (eg: a new gymnast forgetting she can not cartwheel yet), and events such as concerts, shows, traumatic events (eg: a death/suicide of a loved one or attempt on ones own life). More research is being done into elements that are forgotten and what areas of the skull must be traumatized to cause SML.

i think i got injured the past time i play soccer. i fell to the floor and momentarily lost conscious for a few seconds.

i blanked out...

selective memory loss

2008-02-14T22:45:00.003+08:00

i cannot remember the people that i knew before. their face keeps appearing in front of me but i just cannot remember who are they. i also have the number of some unknown people in my phone. maybe i knew them before. but i cannot remember now. i have some empty things in my memory. some lapses here and there. but i just cannot remember what goes there...

i think its just selective memory loss.

i seem to like prime numbers now somehow.
1,2,3,5,7,11,13,17,19,23,29,31,37,41,43,47,53...

there's something really special about my posts these days. if u can find out, then i must applaud u. its not really easy to find it...

told u there was something different. congrats. sms me. i will applaud u.